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act044

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Well I quit my job. I lasted 2 weeks. It was to much. They were rude and mean . I walked in on my coworkers talking about me . I broke down and cried at work yesterday. It's wearing me down. I couldn't do it and now I feel like a failure. My pdoc thinks disability is the way to stay since I'm far from stable. I still feel like a failure that no one likes. I would much rather hide away and be a hermit. All I need is my boy. He's my world and he loves me unconditionally . I love him so much . I can't imagine life without him. He made me a better person . I just wish I wasn't so emotional for him. I wish I hadn't failed him. I try my best but with my financial problems I've provided needs but not wants. I want to give him the best life possible but I feel like I'm failing.
 
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SpaceTurtle

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I typed you a BIG respond and it disappeared. I have to leave to go to a doctors appointment.

But lots of love and hugs.

Your son sounds so love, can you tell us more about him?

So sorry about your job, it was NOT the right place for you, please keep away from that work environment.
 
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act044

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I'm going to keep away. It's not enjoyable and makes me feel worse.
My son is wonderful! He's almost 4 and super happy , active boy. He told me I'm pretty this morning and it made me feel really good. It's an amazing feeling being told I love you and having someone who loves you through everything. He's quite a hyper kids and loves to ride his bike and go to the park. He is the complete opposite of me. He loves making new friends and being out playing. He is an extrovert; very outgoing and sociable. Everyone loves him and thinks he's so adorable. Some of the things he says are hilarious ; he puts a smile on my gave everyday. Even on the worst of days he still makes me smile. He hugs me and asks are you sad then kisses me and says I love you. It is a wonderful feeling. Becoming and being a mother is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I just wish I wasn't such a failure and could be the best, give the best and not be so emotional. He shouldn't have to comfort me on my low days. He shouldn't have to see me like that. I'm scared he's going to get my gene and develop some sort of mental illness. Seeing how moody I am I'm nervous he's going to act like me. It shouldn't be normal . I wish I was like most people and not so fucked up. I am just glad he is happy and still loves me. It is a struggle but I'm doing my best. I hope he doesn't hate me in the end. I'm so nervous he's going to take the same path as me especially the way society is in this period of time. I want the best for him. I want him to be successful with everything he sets his mind to. I hope he achieves everything he wants and doesn't end up like me.
 
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