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Lukcy2019

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Hi

Please I need help with finding what type of mental illness I suffer from. I've been suffering for many years, in fact from an early age. I'm grown up now having a family and still suffering.
I'm going to start with an example. I woke up this morning and saw that I have around 20 reflux (stomach acid) tablets left, and I know that when I finish those tablets I can go and ask the chemist for more. However
I started thinking bad about what if the chemist doesn't have any? then I said to myself get it from somewhere else. I kept telling myself that why do you think that you might not be able to purchase your tablet. I then started ruminating for a while until I found another subject to worry about. I have a lot of unwanted/intrusive thoughts as well. For example, when I'm trying to read my book, all of a sudden remember something which has happened 10-20 years ago. And I start worrying and thinking bad about it. Please let me give you another example. I was reading my book yesterday
and then all of a sudden I remembered that someone from the previous company brought an external hard drive to me and said that this is a present for someone, and asked me if he needs to
do anything to set it up. I replied, no these hard drives are plug and play. I'm sure I was right. However, after nearly 5 years it came to my head yesterday morning and
I started worrying that I might have given him the wrong info. As you can see, I think about the stuff that not important at all and they've happened while ago. I have these issues almost all day, and it is very painful. I think I have a mixture of OCD, depression, and anxiety. However, I do highly appreciated it if someone tells me exactly what type of mental illness I'm suffering from.

Many thanks
 
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Roseessa

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Hi,
have you spoke to a doctor about this? You are better talking to them and getting an official diagnosis then getting one from someone on the internet.
hope you are well and stay safe
 
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Lukcy2019

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Hi Roseessa

Yes I have spoken to a few doctors in the past and I've on meds for many years, but meds didn't help at all. In fact, I was a lot wore after taking different meds. I've also seen a few CBTs in the past.

Thank you
 
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Roseessa

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Did they not diagnose you with anything? Say what could be going on? Especially if they were giving you meds.
stay safe
 
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Lukcy2019

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Did they not diagnose you with anything? Say what could be going on? Especially if they were giving you meds.
stay safe
Thank you for the fast response. I've seen GPs in the past not a psychotherapist. To be honest I've read a lot of posts in this forum trying to find someone who has a similar condition but I couldn't find any. I was hoping to find someone similar so I could talk to that person and find out what is best to do. I'm sure there are many people similar but I haven't yet seen any in this forum.
Many thanks
 
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I think that diagnosis can be a bit of a minefield. Apart from physically self-harming, hallucinations (vis/aud) and OCD, I have sufferd most symptoms covered between these many pages.

I put myself as bi-polar - anxious - depressed. It is tough and the brain plays tricks, some periods worse than others depending on what life is throwing at us.

Sounds like a bit of 'my name is Earl' going on, things have a way of working themselves out... think butterfly effect. Your actions that day could have changed their path and prevented them or soeone else being involved in a serious accident.

I always say - if we must worry about something, make it something positive x
 
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Have you ever tried an online test? I know it's not substitute of professionals but at least you can give it a try !
 
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Have you ever tried an online test? I know it's not substitute of professionals but at least you can give it a try !
Good advice for anyone 👍 you know of any free tests?
 
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Thank you for the fast response. I've seen GPs in the past not a psychotherapist. To be honest I've read a lot of posts in this forum trying to find someone who has a similar condition but I couldn't find any. I was hoping to find someone similar so I could talk to that person and find out what is best to do. I'm sure there are many people similar but I haven't yet seen any in this forum.
Many thanks
GPs can diagnose some cases but seeing a therapist is definitely best. You can find out what they think and then go from there on how bets to help. Honestly its sounds like anxiety but like I said you need to see someone who can officially diagnose you.
Is there anyway you can get in to see anyone? I imagine it will be difficult especially during this time.
Stay safe :)
 
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Lukcy2019

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Hi

Thank you all for the great replies. I guess it might be possible to see a specialist by Skype.

regards
 
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If possible could you let us know the result so we can try to help you further?
 
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