- Apr 21, 2015
- Va Beach
My Generalized Anxiety and OCD has turned me into a full blown philosopher... I just have a 1,000 questions and what ifs... Sometimes I wonder if life is just a dream... Or an illusion? Then I ask myself even if it is why can't I just enjoy the moment... The I obsess over death... I'm scared of dying... It really freaks me out... What happens during death? After death? Is there life after death? What's the point of painting your house if you're going to die anyway? Then I get extreme fears that what if I am really losing my mind and this is not OCD what if my mind is losing control and I'm going crazy? What if I go crazy and lose control of my physical self and kills myself even though that's the last thing that I want to happen!!! It's a shit ton of What Ifs!!!! My doctor put me on .5 mg of klonopin and .20 mg of Prozac I am on day 3 of Prozac... I google too much shit and I'm making myself even more crazy!!! Now I'm obsessed with serotonin syndrome... Can 20mg of Prozac cause that? I'm just really scared... I used to be a guy with no worries... Lived care free... But at the same time I was never relaxed or comfortable... I hope I can be the fun person that I once was... I miss me...