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Justafriend95

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Omg I'm stressed already. Over 2,5 weeks I have to go to school again. The first week I have an exam and I don't know what to do or learn.

Than the first weekend my parents celebrate there 25 years married. We go out with the hole family.. next to that weekend my internship begins at a big ass compagnie and I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm suppose to do there..

I have to go in therapy but they never called me back so I have to call them again..

It all to much already.. I feel my eyes are starting to water again. I can't stop crying.. I'm so fucking sick of this.. it isn't even started yet and I feel like the can lock me up at the mental hospital..

Idk what to do with myself.. feel like everything is better than this..
 
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hey justafriend ...sounds like a lot of expectations and it doesnt sound like its what you want to do. but sometimes we have to do what we dont want to do to know what we want to do. so unless there is something else you would prefer to do then really....as doiing nothing is not a good thing.

you are not mental in fact you are perfectly normal. can you talk to anyone it really sounds that you could do with haivng a heart to heart with someone. talking things out does help. is there a school counselor at the school you go to when you go back if you cant find someone between here and then?

might be good to sit down and go through a plan of action maybe with someone but at the very least please talk to someone. and please keep posting in the meanwhile

really feel for you
 
Justafriend95

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hey justafriend ...sounds like a lot of expectations and it doesnt sound like its what you want to do. but sometimes we have to do what we dont want to do to know what we want to do. so unless there is something else you would prefer to do then really....as doiing nothing is not a good thing.

you are not mental in fact you are perfectly normal. can you talk to anyone it really sounds that you could do with haivng a heart to heart with someone. talking things out does help. is there a school counselor at the school you go to when you go back if you cant find someone between here and then?

might be good to sit down and go through a plan of action maybe with someone but at the very least please talk to someone. and please keep posting in the meanwhile

really feel for you
Sorry react to this later just got a call that my grandpa is dying.. so I'm a mess..
 
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0h so very sorry Justafriend you have a lot of stuff going on take care and go gently with yourself
 
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Update about my grandpa.. he still is alive. That's good news. My parents send him to a home where he can rest. He gets all the attention he needs and the medication he needs.

He started eating again and everything looked to go the right way.. until today. He doesn't want to take his medication. I worry about that..

My grandma is taking my ant to the home.. something I am really mad about. She can only be negative and my grandma is going along with that.. next to my sick grandpa..

I understand why he doesn't want to take his medication. All the negative shit next to his bed makes him more depressed instead of feeling better..

He needs support not a negative talkshow how bad everything is..

I told myself to not be angry but my blood is steaming hot writhing this now.. I want to hurt my ant. I know that's not okay.. but I feel so angry..

I will never touche somebody.. don't worry but in my head I did..
 

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