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it's get worse i need serious help plz!

mark payne

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I posted about this before but the help i get wasn't enough and it make it even worse and i kinda become suicidal cause of a thought! so please guys again just don't ignore it and post replies as much as you can i know i maybe be annoying but i swear i need help!!

i have panic attacks from two weeks and OCD and big fear of becoming gay (i'm 100000% a straight dude) everything was normal till that stupid crazy idea come in my mind,it was really hard days with my girlfriend cause she's so jealous and we always fight she made me so mad and that idea pop up in my mind i said exactly in my mind ( damn why is living with a female is that hard i wish if they think like us men it would make things easier and amazing then my mind like gave me pictures of me and an other dude (not sexual) and how easy we will connect cause we are both males...then after that moment my life become black i swear i'm straight but the idea just come in my mind and my mind kinda welcome it not sexualy i mean the idea of understanding each other as a family!! then i asked my self this question like what if i wake up someday this way !!! i swear i thought about it and i wished just to hide or die ...i swear i dont have anything against gay people i have gay friends and i know there is nothing wrong with being gay but it just NO ITS NOT FOR ME and i dont wanna be this way EVER!!

i searched about it in google i typed,( can someone sexuality change just like that!! )and what i read gave me more panic attacks,i read that sexuality is fluid and it can happen!! after reading this i was throwing up all day i hated my self and i was completely afraid and scared and try to be away from everyone especially my male friends cause my mind be like it will happen now!!

i read also that sexuality is in our genes and it fixed from birth and it cant change, you either born gay/bi/straight and you dont become , its not a choice..

i wish the second thing is the right thing please say it's true....i'm in a terrible case and near to do some crazy thing in my self so please guys if you have something can give me hope again that i will not wake up someday this way say it, just please dont say it's ok to be gay i know its ok but IM NOT GAY i have a fear to become one, so please anything can make me feel better especially scientific things and thank you so much and sorry if i'm so annoying i really need help i'm so down and broken!! PLEASE HELP ME BACK MY LIFE!
 
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Purple Chaos

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Hey, sorry to hear you're feeling worse than you were.

Googling isn't always a good idea. There's so much conflicting evidence out there that it's no wonder you feel more confused than ever.

We can connect to other people, male and female and feel love for them as friends without feeling anything sexual towards them. I personally think that if you were gay you would have been sexually attracted to men by now, which you claim you are not. Please try to stop worrying about it all.
 
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I would suggest going to your girlfriend and tell her you feel insecure and need a Pick-Me-Up :doh:
 
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Hey man. Listen to this. I had almost exactly the same as you have just. It was really painful, i was depressed everyday didnt want to live etc. Always had these thought that were just killing me inside. I strongly advice seeing a pressesional. I was seeing one and it took me about 6 month to get rid of the thoughts. So dont wait, see a pro!
 
mark payne

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kelics : thnx for the reply bro i already did but it was hard i mean i couldn't just stay there telling a dude i'm scared to turn gay, i can't go there an other time noway!! but thnx anyway.
 
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Man dont be scared,im a shy person naturally but i went and did it because i was desperate to get rid of that problem. So u can do it too! Just man up and see a woman conusilor. Remember they are there to help you thats their job.
 
mark payne

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No new answers?!! ok can i at last talk to someone in private?!! i need help i dont feel ok i swear !
 
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Mark hi,
Sorry to hear that talking before didn't help as much as I hoped.

We can't make this go away for you unfortunately. We can listen and try to convince you, but as I said before it is important to talk to a professional if you cannot get help that alleviates your concerns from other sufferers like us.

We care very much, but we can't do what a face to face professional can.
Please go back again and try to find the courage to talk this through.

take care
x
 
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