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Lincoln1990

Lincoln1990

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The guilt, the shame, the headache, the voices, the depression is all back. I might as well stop living. It'll come get me every single day. I can't kill myself because of a few reasons. Knowing I'm diabetic is not helping. I feel like s*** right now and it's because my sugars are (probably) too high. I had bread for breakfast. I know it's bad but I don't know if I'm strong enough not to eat that sort of thing.

I wish I could do you all a favor and die. But I xant. I'm sorry for living and being a burden on you all.
 
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Helena1

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Hopefully soon you can get meds and dietary advice for the diabetes and then you will feel better.
 
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I'm sorry your feeling so bad Lincoln. I hope you will be okay. No way are you a burden honey. It's good to see you posting. :hug: xx
 
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Don't say those things about yourself! You are lovely and sweet and people on here are very fond of you, that's the truth. You are loved, and you are allowed to be alive. You deserve it. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Huge hugs xxx
 
Lincoln1990

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I'm sorry I'm such a bad person. I'm sorry I can't be selfish and kill myself. I NEED to though.
 
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:hug5: hey there x thinking of you x
 
Lincoln1990

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I've decided...I will be gone within a month.
 
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Don't say that linc. You'd have the rest of us topping ourselves for one thing. You're not a burden and you're lovely.
 
Lincoln1990

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And it'll be like I never existed :) you all won't care anyway.
 
Mister.B

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We will know you existed, Linc.
Not a day would go by that we didn't know you existed.
Not a day would go by where we wouldn't think about you.

But, we'd prefer to know you rather than remember you, hun.
 
Lincoln1990

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I'm in a rough spot and I need to die
 
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