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megirl

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I thought I was an alcoholic???!!

Not that that matters really but apparantly I arent :unsure:

Anyway most my adult life have used alcohol on and off to self medicate.
I am on antabuse but had been sometimestaking it and sometimes not.

Several weeks ago I had a total blackout. Cant remember a thing, I had 2 bottles of wine that i know of though cant remember. Only remember talking to a friend after one bottle trying to cover up i had been drinking. As soon as she walked out the door I thought what have we been talking about??
Anyway thats the last thing I remember.

I have looked into my bank account and on that same day I used my eftpos card on three different transactions in one afternoon.
I must have driven to get another bottle then after I polished off my bottle numbertwo I went back again to the same supermarket to buy my third, I drove :eek:

Just with my past history and not being able to stop at one glass drinking as much as I can in one session then surely I definitely assumed that I was an alcoholic.

I have just been referred to the a&d services and the nurse specialist is like so nice so anyway I think I need them to kind of point me in the right direction and to deter me from drinking,

Its would be so nice to sit down and have one glass of wine a couple of times a week but it just doesnt work for me,

So anyway its weird but I know it will be beneficial to me to have some input as such.
I really shocked myself with my drinking then driving to get more alcohol I could have killed someone, its so given me a fright makes me feel sick
 
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I used to self medicate with booze in reaction to stress and to sleep.
 
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I think 50% of people with bipolar have some form of addiction to alcohol and/drugs, so therefore its not unusual at all.

But feel pleased I have talked to my support worker and told him what i had done for me with the high dose meds i take and my liver function its more like 1 bottle of wine for me is like 2 bottles of wine no wonder i was smashed
 
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Oh totally. Your liver was being put in to overdrive.
 
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Also overdoses in past etc
but yeh hoping i can stay off the booze.
I feel bit of that urge to drink even when I talk about it,

most my crises in the last year or so have been directly alcohol related when I drink thats the times I am inclined to OD although my last overdose was 10 months ago!!!
which is great for me
 
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I'm kind of lucky, I love booze but never really build tolerance or get withdrawal. So three pints and I'm pissed and wake up not wanting to drink for a week.

Best to leave alone if you can't moderate it I guess. Easier said than done I'm sure. I take a much lower dose of the same med and my shrink would like me to quit booze 100% but I even told him 'Look I'm a young man and once or twice a week I'm going to have a few beers and play pool with my mates.' He said it was not ideal but you could tell he kind of sympathized or realised he was asking too much.

Anyway good luck staying healthy.
 
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