- Dec 21, 2020
It gets worse. I just want to stay in bed forever. I want to self harm but I'm trying not to think about it. I'm having suicidal thoughts and I spoke to my doctor about it. He says there's nothing that can be changed with my medication because he doesn't want to give me a higher dosage. I'm so tired. I'm having paranoid thoughts. It feels like people are going against me or planning something. I'm worried that I'll go viral and become a joke to the whole world. If that happens, I wouldn't know how to continue existing.