It’s all so stupid!

B

Barcud_Coch

Well-known member
Joined
Dec 6, 2012
Messages
51
Location
UK
#1
Today I was meant to be going to a meeting to help me control my drinking. I’m not an alcoholic, but I use alcohol unhealthily to self medicate for anxiety, and, with my BPD and trouble controlling my impulses, it’s occasionally pretty dangerous.
I turned up early to the community centre and there was no answer at the door.
Eventually I got inside and nothing. No one helpful there.
EXCEPT an FUCKING BAR! A bar! I’m meant to ask behind the bar if they know where the alcohol service meeting is! Well, social anxiety took hold. I mumbled something about being in the wrong place, walked out and angrily walked home.
Ironically, the stress of this bullshit has meant I’ve started drinking! FFS! I try so hard to get better, but life constantly throws BS at me!
 
mami5

mami5

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 30, 2012
Messages
11,093
Location
North West Wales
#2
I'm sorry you experienced this. Think it was very irresponsible of them to arrange it in the same building as a bar! Talk about shoving temptation in your face.

I hope you don't drink to a dangerous level, take care.
 
Mayflower7

Mayflower7

Well-known member
Moderator
Joined
Jan 4, 2013
Messages
8,570
Location
England
#3
Hi,
Sorry that happened to you, have you been to your GP often they can help.
Take care
 
S

SuZQ154

Active member
Joined
May 21, 2017
Messages
25
#4
So sorry. You walked away from the bar and that was good. Progress not perfection. Have you ever considered Celebrate Recovery, a similar program to AA which is often run through churches?
 
B

Barcud_Coch

Well-known member
Joined
Dec 6, 2012
Messages
51
Location
UK
#5
So it turns out (they phoned me the next day) that I was meant to go into a smaller door round the side, not the main door. There’s no signage or anything.
Am meant to be going again tomorrow morning. Hopefully I’ll find this mysterious door and have my meeting
 
Thread starter Similar threads Forum Replies Date
G Borderline Personality Disorder Forum 6

Similar threads