- Oct 20, 2019
- Augusta, Maine
I have severe OCD and all my life I've been around people. I would have terrible violent intrusive thoughts about hurting these people. I was married for 15 years and had 4 kids, when the kids were young I thought I would molest them, or violently hurt them it was a very trying time in my life. I have found that in my life now that I have to isolate to keep from having intrusive thoughts. I know it's not healthy to be alone all the time but it's the only way I can have a clear mind. I do go out to go to the store and to church but that's it. I have let some people close but I'm scared their going to hurt me or that I'm going to hurt them. I have terrible murderess thoughts. I don't trust anyone. I sit in my rocking chair all day listening to music and surfing the internet about my medication. I don't know what to do with myself, am I alone?