- Apr 21, 2019
- Tyler, Texas
This is my first post to these threads. Without writing a novel, I had a bad reaction to some medications, and it manifested in severe suicidal thoughts. It was a fight in my head between end it, and do whatever it takes to survive. I didn’t go through with harming myself, but it was close enough to scare me more than I have ever been. I had to take some time off work to go to doctors and detox from the reaction to the meds. I was up front with friends and coworkers with what happened. They know I’ve struggled with mental illness for years (bipolar 2, anxiety, social anxiety, depression). Here’s the deal though, I haven’t had anyone but my doctor, and parents check in on me. I don’t know if it’s just too awkward, or the don’t know what to say, or since it was a medication reaction, it’s no concern, or what. I feel like I went through with it and don’t exist now. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced a similar situation. These are people who are in my daily life, some really good friends, and it feels like they’ve just vanished on me.