- Jan 7, 2020
The future feels bleak and I really don't know what to do. I think I may be heading into a depression but it's hard to tell for me...my mood is low but I am restless and antsy like almost always. I just know it would be better for my friends if I distance myself for a bit. Not that it's bad to talk about struggles but no one seems to be up for it which is okay too.Im trying so hard. I'm going to try to make some "music" today I think...that always keeps my full attention occupied for hours. I have a lot that needs to come out so hopefully that will help. I've been listening for number stations or anything interesting really on shortwave radio to sample in my "music" which also uses up time...