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Is this paranoia or something else?

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Tyronez

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Hi,
So for many years I've had issues with I guess being concernd with what may be behind me (physically). Along with general paranoia? When home alone, or even if family are there, if I'm the last one going to bed, last one downstairs etc.
When walking the dogs, I feel I need to be slightly in front of my partner, as when I'm at the back I feel very uneasy as to what could be behind me and I will often look over my shoulder.
Currently home alone for an extended period and despite having lived here for many years, I can't stand at the kitchen sink without feeling very uneasy as to what is behind me so ill have to stand somewat sideways at the sink so i can see more of the room.
I can't walk past the dark hallway without feeling like if I look down it someone will be standing there looking at me.
When I shower I don't like to close my eyes as I feel that someone could be standing on the other side of the shower door once I open my eyes. ( this is made worse by the fact the shower is loud so I also cant hear what's going on in the bathroom around the shower).
If I'm the last person downstairs I feel like I have to run up stairs because someone might grab me from behind if I go up them normally.
I also have to check all the doors are locked before going to bed at least 2-3 times and my bedroom door doesn't have a lock on it so I put something in front of the door while I'm asleep (When home alone).

I thought this might come under paranoia, but having googled several things, I'm not sure if it does?
 
Poopy Doll

Poopy Doll

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It sounds like mild paranoia to me. Do you have a counselor/therapist ?? Do you want to stop doing this behavior ?? Because repeating it daily isn't going to get you out of it. A therapist can guide you into challenging these behaviors.
 
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lucybrighton

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As kids, we all have slight paranoia towards darkness and things lurking behind our back. Has this behavior been a part of you since childhood? Or did it develop unknowingly over the years? You should definitely see a therapist about this. It sounds terrible to live a life in constant fear.
 
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