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Okay, so... here's the deal. I am finally coming clean with these thoughts I have.
OVer the past few weeks, I have been having suicidal/homicidal thoughts. HOWEVER, I have never had the urge to commit these acts... but they do occur but not always on a daily basis. Sometimes they do, sometimes they don't.. but when they do, I have a rapid heart beat and it's quite vigorous. I remember two days ago I was having these thoughts when I was on the operating table and I could hear the heart monitor sky rocket.
The thoughts include hurting my mother, father, or any other loved one. I would -never- do this (in fact I would hurt myself long before I did wrong to anybody). I don't WANT these thoughts to occur.. they just do. And in order for me to get them to go away I have to occupy myself with something, such as talking with people, playing a game (even when I start to get bored with a game these thoughts occur, etc). Sometimes these thoughts can escalate in grotesqueness and it disturbs me.
I did a bit of research and I found that this is a common symptom for "Pure OCD"... but I am just not sure whether or not I would post it in the OCD section as I wanted a second opinion. It feels good to get this off of my chest....
I am a very loving person to say the least, it's just... these thoughts are hurting my psyche and ability to concentrate. What are your suggestions?
OVer the past few weeks, I have been having suicidal/homicidal thoughts. HOWEVER, I have never had the urge to commit these acts... but they do occur but not always on a daily basis. Sometimes they do, sometimes they don't.. but when they do, I have a rapid heart beat and it's quite vigorous. I remember two days ago I was having these thoughts when I was on the operating table and I could hear the heart monitor sky rocket.
The thoughts include hurting my mother, father, or any other loved one. I would -never- do this (in fact I would hurt myself long before I did wrong to anybody). I don't WANT these thoughts to occur.. they just do. And in order for me to get them to go away I have to occupy myself with something, such as talking with people, playing a game (even when I start to get bored with a game these thoughts occur, etc). Sometimes these thoughts can escalate in grotesqueness and it disturbs me.
I did a bit of research and I found that this is a common symptom for "Pure OCD"... but I am just not sure whether or not I would post it in the OCD section as I wanted a second opinion. It feels good to get this off of my chest....

I am a very loving person to say the least, it's just... these thoughts are hurting my psyche and ability to concentrate. What are your suggestions?