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Is There Something Wrong With Me?

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Caketin

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The past year or so I have been wanting to hurt someone or something. My anger has been getting way worse than it has in the past and the thought of hurting someone seems thrilling to me - the only reason I haven't hurt someone is because I'm afraid of the consequences of it.

With wanting to hurt someone, I have had thoughts of hurting my friends, family and people I hate - even killing them sometimes. When I have the thought of killing my friends and family it mostly worries me and makes my heart speed up but some part of my is smiling a little bit. When I have the thought of hurting and killing the people I hate, I get excited and start smiling. The thought of hurting the people I hate comforts me and its scared me. I even have dreams about hurting people for God's sake!

I have a dog and I love her but I get this feeling like I want to hurt her and I almost do but I stop myself. I haven't done anything to her but it's the thoughts and the almost hurting her, that is making me want to stay away from my dog.

Now time for the anger.. The anger I have inside of me is scaring - to me at least. The littlest things trigger me into spiraling into anger. And when I've gotten angry the past few days, I've just wanted to strangle someone.

I don't know what to do or if there is something wrong with me. What do I do?
 
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MomMe

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Sprakers, NY
Anger is a normal emotion and can at times be a response to a situation or experience. Someone once told me, "feelings don't have brains, but you do." I personally find that if I meditate on being angry, I feel angry, but if I do some work, or focus on loving others, the anger doesn't have any way of growing. I've given it no fuel to work off of. If you feel like you want to hurt someone you may need someone you feel comfortable with to talk to, an old friend per say. Rejection and feelings of depression can make you feel angry because in justice were created to love others. We're all here for you so don't feel ashamed or alone. Exercise helps if you're able. Maybe throw a ball to your dog( try to avoid throwing it at him if possible :) I'm trying to be funny! Take a nap and some tea too if that helps. Have a blessed day.
 
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Caketin

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Scotland
Anger is a normal emotion and can at times be a response to a situation or experience. Someone once told me, "feelings don't have brains, but you do." I personally find that if I meditate on being angry, I feel angry, but if I do some work, or focus on loving others, the anger doesn't have any way of growing. I've given it no fuel to work off of. If you feel like you want to hurt someone you may need someone you feel comfortable with to talk to, an old friend per say. Rejection and feelings of depression can make you feel angry because in justice were created to love others. We're all here for you so don't feel ashamed or alone. Exercise helps if you're able. Maybe throw a ball to your dog( try to avoid throwing it at him if possible :) I'm trying to be funny! Take a nap and some tea too if that helps. Have a blessed day.
Thank you, I will take your suggestions to mind and try to do them. Thank you again!
 
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