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Hey,I am 29yrs guy.An event that took place 5 years ago,I am no more the same guy since then.It was,ok,this is awkward...
Well,I was at my friend's place and there was this time when me and his sister was having a little chat.Suddenly she bend down,resting her elbow with her both hand clasped together.Her outfit had low cut where i knew that her cleavage was within my peripheral vision.And the moment I start thinking about not to look at it,held me back and there..BOOM! I peaked,she noticed,I moved my head away like a stupid,sustaining on "ummmm",she sat upright covering it up and tried to run the conversation.Left the house with severe embarrassment and since then,it went down the OCD line,repeating the event,over and over again,spreading out to almost everyone now.including guys,kids,walls,trees.FYI,I dnt feel sexually aroused when I do this rather feel.embarrassed.Lost jobs, dropped out of uni,lost relationship..at this point I dnt feel no connections neither with myself nor with anyone except for this new lady, fortunately,so understanding of this issue and teaching me to open myself up again.then again guys,this OCD "what if" loops,I guess anyone with hardcore OCD and someone who specialises in this can really relate.

I have read books, documentaries,online researche everything!Since I am from a very religiously strict place,this is almost a threat to walk around with my eyes confused like that.No friends..no family..just her over the phone who live overseas.I keep surving the suicidal phase over and over again..
 
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I trying to fix my own OCD thoughts. Sometimes it feels like I'm getting better some times worse. Recently I've been trying to normalize the thoughts so that they can pass like any other thought. I try to have a casual attitude about them. I hope this helps or someone else comes along with some excellent advise.
 
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What would be ur OCD , I didnt understand it so right.

Whats the thing you repeat ?
 
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Hey,I am 29yrs guy.An event that took place 5 years ago,I am no more the same guy since then.It was,ok,this is awkward...
Well,I was at my friend's place and there was this time when me and his sister was having a little chat.Suddenly she bend down,resting her elbow with her both hand clasped together.Her outfit had low cut where i knew that her cleavage was within my peripheral vision.And the moment I start thinking about not to look at it,held me back and there..BOOM! I peaked,she noticed,I moved my head away like a stupid,sustaining on "ummmm",she sat upright covering it up and tried to run the conversation.Left the house with severe embarrassment and since then,it went down the OCD line,repeating the event,over and over again,spreading out to almost everyone now.including guys,kids,walls,trees.FYI,I dnt feel sexually aroused when I do this rather feel.embarrassed.Lost jobs, dropped out of uni,lost relationship..at this point I dnt feel no connections neither with myself nor with anyone except for this new lady, fortunately,so understanding of this issue and teaching me to open myself up again.then again guys,this OCD "what if" loops,I guess anyone with hardcore OCD and someone who specialises in this can really relate.

I have read books, documentaries,online researche everything!Since I am from a very religiously strict place,this is almost a threat to walk around with my eyes confused like that.No friends..no family..just her over the phone who live overseas.I keep surving the suicidal phase over and over again..
Mate you are going, through the same thing I am. Been looking for someone for ages with this problem, breathed a sigh of relief reading you post. This is a living hell, I am working very hard at it a the moment. I visit the Supermarket everyday and just walk around and test my limits. It is sort of an exposure therapy, I am doing for me. I have been heavy medicated for my Ocd which includes a lot of intrusive thought revolving around thoughts of questioning my sexuality as well as looking at people inappropriately. I am not taking medication anymore just working damn hard trying to beat it. Hope we talk more, so glad you posted that
 
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I saw my psychologist about intrusive thoughts I don't know if this will help I view people as threats, so I hear a door slam I'm on alert stuff like that, so my psychologist explained that if I constantly am on the look out for threats I will constantly perceive things as threats. Like someone who is afraid of spiders so they're always on the look out for spiders so they constantly see spiders making them more anxious. So if you can some how train your mind to not be on the constant look out for these triggers because of thoughts you might have you might stop having the thoughts.
 
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I've had thoughts along this line. It's difficult because it makes you question your character and it doesn't feel good. What helps me is distinctly clarifying that my thought immediately goes to distressed and not sexual pleasure. It can snap me back out of it to say "this is clearly an OCD thing, not a sexual thing. And while it's upsetting, I know it's not my fault and it doesn't ring true to who I am." I've found that helpful. Also, if you are not already, I would go talk to a professional about this who can provide other therapies and coping mechanisms. Based on research I've done, thoughts of this nature are really common. Hope this helps!
 
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