I’m 19 year old who lives with both parents. I have 3 sisters and a brother all of which have moved out and earn a living. I struggle to find a job even though I have qualifications nothing seems to go right for me. I’m basiacally the family disappointment I’ve suffered bad depression for more than a year now I have no money no job and constantly feel 2nd, 3rd, 4th best. My parents don’t know about my depression or the times were I have self harmed. The fact that I turn 20 in less than a month makes me feel even worse there’s people out there my age with a good job, nice car etc. And then there’s me...I feel like the only way through this now is to kill myself and I’m getting closer and closer each day. I don’t appreciate life and would trade it in for someone else’s in a heart beat.