- Feb 26, 2018
Don’t worry, you can ask away. Happy to be of any help at all.Oh this makes me so happy to hear! Happy to hear that there is a way out of this, and happy to hear you yourself are feeling good and like your normal self!
To be honest, I haven't felt like myself at all in the past 3 months and it feels like it's never going to end. Everything feels so dull and void, but I'm trying to have hope. Right now my biggest sadness is the fact that I can't socialize the way I used to. Did you have a problem with this as well? Do you find your ability to socialize has returned to normal? Did you feel any joy when you were flat?
Also did you do anything during the time you felt flat to help lift your mood? How exactly did you feel when you were flat? Is it like I described on the first post?
Phew, sorry! I really don't mean to pry with so many questions, I'm just intensely curious to see how somebody has come out of the other end of this. Feel free to not answer anything you don't want to, haha. I'm aware they're really long questions.
I really appreciate your replies!
Well, to put things in perspective, I left hospital last August and it took five months for me to feel more like myself and longer again to function really, really well. It might not take that long for you and do bear in mind you need to keep assessing with the doc the possibility of side effects too. But yeah, it took a number of months to feel more normal. But I got there and there is light at the end of the tunnel.
On socialising. Oh yeah, I totally lost the ability to do that. I couldn’t function very well among people, couldn’t express myself and just felt so empty and that I had nothing to offer to friends etc. So I basically didn’t socialise but that kind of fed the problem because the more isolated I was, the more my mental health was impacted upon.
So what I did was joined a walking group. Mine was a group for people with mental health conditions so I felt quite comfortable. I was so void at first but after while I started to talk to the other people there and found myself having a bit of banter. I started to regain a small sense of self and it helped grow my confidence. Then, after a few months I went on to do a short course once a week and this gave me a sense of purpose which also helped me feel a bit better.
Basically I took baby steps to ease my way back into life and let myself recover at the right pace. So this is what worked for me. We’re all different and we’ll all recover in different ways but I think finding at least one thing that gets you out the house and being around people in a safe and non-pressured environment really helps.
I don’t want to bombard you with information so sorry if this is really long!
Couple more quick thoughts. One is that I’m now working part time which shows how far I’ve come and that there is hope. The other important thing is that I do still deal with symptoms but I can maintain my new life whilst combatting these. So life can get good again. Be gentle on yourself and give yourself time. You’ve been through a lot and healing at the right pace is important. Hope this is a wee bit useful for you.