Well; no pain, no gain in this life. I think we sort of spoke about this topic in your last post 'Sick of this old mindset'. I'm not going to repeat myself, I stand by what I said, even though you may not agree with me. I will say one more thing though.
Just before he retired, my old school headmaster taught me an important lesson: "If you aim low in life, you will always hit the mark; but never benefit from the satisfaction of success nor the lesson learnt from failiure. If you aim high, you won't always hit your target and you will feel frustrated. But with each mistake you make, you'll learn a lesson and eventually your aim will get better. So shoot for the stars, so if you miss you will at least land on the moon."
Its kind of corny and you might think its an overly idealistic thing to say, given your situation. But I think that its relevent and this kind of mindset has been my guiding light in the past throughout adversity.