- Mar 20, 2020
I've realized I've become increasingly paranoid or panicked when I'm in unfamiliar settings. There even comes a point when certain colors, smells, or objects stir up my emotions or remind me of my phobias. My dad recently moved our entertainment center back on the wall near the kitchen and reminds me of distressing memories. I frantically removed picture frames off the wall and tried placing them in different locations but I was still dissatisfied. Since I've had a breakdown followed by panic attacks, my house doesn't make feel at home anymore. Every room I go into freaks me out and I end up feeling an odd sense of dread. The sunshine coming through the windows feels more eerie rather than uplifting. Maybe I'm just going nuts but I swear I feel an irrational sense of perception these days.