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Lost.Boy
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I base my self worth on the appreciation shown by others, the fact i've only ever had 1 serious long term relationship in nearly 30 years of life makes me feel liek a pathetic excuse for a human being. I've been single since I was 24 so that's 6 years of feeling like i'll never feel the warmth of a loving hug or making love again. It's got so bad i've been accused of being gay and a peado at various points in my life even though there's no foundation to base either on at allother than the fact I've been single for so long.
I can't see a point to life at all if i'll be single for the rest of it and frankly I don't see how i'll ever find someone to love or to love me ever again and it kills me inside. I still live at home and everyone has moved so far ahead of me in life it's unreal, nobody I know has moved away from home while single, no idea how I could ever cope on my own. It just wouldn't happen, I know when my mum goes i'll have no choice but suicide.
That hurts so much :'(
I can't see a point to life at all if i'll be single for the rest of it and frankly I don't see how i'll ever find someone to love or to love me ever again and it kills me inside. I still live at home and everyone has moved so far ahead of me in life it's unreal, nobody I know has moved away from home while single, no idea how I could ever cope on my own. It just wouldn't happen, I know when my mum goes i'll have no choice but suicide.
That hurts so much :'(