Intrusive thoughts were in my nightmares

[nomask]

I had a dream last night that terrified me because I thought it was real and I'd actually hurt someone. I'm not going to specify anything because I feel so much disgust with myself I can't bring myself to tell another living soul what it is. I never plan to. No therapist or psychiatrist will ever convince me to so I know I will never be able to get help.

I have never had dreams when I actually enacted my intrusive thoughts. I don't know what to do about this and I've been unable to stop thinking about it all day. The dream was vivid. It makes me feel nauseous. It makes me feel like I'm permanently tainted now. I am so fearful this is supposed to mean I actually am a bad person. I don't know what to do. It's always been just intrusive thoughts and me having to avoid looking at people or being around them, and I thought I was actually doing better with it lately. Then this happens... I'm scared it's gonna happen again.

 

[daffy]

Nomask if it was only a dream try not to be too concerned but I know dreams can be upsetting. It doesn’t mean you will act on it. Look on it as a nightmare. We all have weird dreams that we read more into than need be. As long as they stay dreams your fine.

 

[nomask]

Thank you, that's reassuring to hear from someone.. I'm just really not used to nightmares being bad because of "me" in the dream, it's somehow even worse.

 

[Somethinguninventive]

I've had dreams where I've killed people and done some terrible things. But dreams can come from anything y'know , tv, books, films, even ur thoughts. If I think about zombies whilst going to sleep I will 100% have a super vivid dream about everyone I know and love being eaten alive by zombies and them killing me too. I've been to see a sleep therapist about my vivid and disturbing dreams and they said it's just because I have an overactive imagination and not to take my dreams too seriously. Hope this helps, I totally relate to the feeling