
nomask
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I had a dream last night that terrified me because I thought it was real and I'd actually hurt someone. I'm not going to specify anything because I feel so much disgust with myself I can't bring myself to tell another living soul what it is. I never plan to. No therapist or psychiatrist will ever convince me to so I know I will never be able to get help.
I have never had dreams when I actually enacted my intrusive thoughts. I don't know what to do about this and I've been unable to stop thinking about it all day. The dream was vivid. It makes me feel nauseous. It makes me feel like I'm permanently tainted now. I am so fearful this is supposed to mean I actually am a bad person. I don't know what to do. It's always been just intrusive thoughts and me having to avoid looking at people or being around them, and I thought I was actually doing better with it lately. Then this happens... I'm scared it's gonna happen again.
I have never had dreams when I actually enacted my intrusive thoughts. I don't know what to do about this and I've been unable to stop thinking about it all day. The dream was vivid. It makes me feel nauseous. It makes me feel like I'm permanently tainted now. I am so fearful this is supposed to mean I actually am a bad person. I don't know what to do. It's always been just intrusive thoughts and me having to avoid looking at people or being around them, and I thought I was actually doing better with it lately. Then this happens... I'm scared it's gonna happen again.