- Apr 19, 2015
I just joined the site because I feel like I have nowhere else to turn. I am a college student and I recently lost my father over the summer. I have had a bad relationship with my mom ever since she made me go to a therapist for my OCD. My brother is no better because he is just like my mom and has no interest in being my brother. He just likes to lecture me like she does. I felt like my dad was a buffer from them. Since he died things have gone downhill fast for me. I feel like my friends and family are pitying me and treating me like a child. This feeling has caused my friends to leave me behind and I feel like there is nothing I can do. I feel like I am alienating my friends and family. I have times where I cant get out of bed or where I just sit for an hour and think about what my life would have been like if my mom had never sent me to the therapists and put the idea that I was crazy in my head. I have had bad thoughts about doing violent things to my friends and family and I feel like ending my life is the only way to make them stop. I am all over the map and I just don't know what to do anymore.