- Mar 17, 2019
- Los Angeles
Hello, I'm writing this because I might be schizophrenic. I don't understand my previous past actions (even though I take responsibility) and reality. I feel as if I'm living in a nightmare. I flunked out of college because I picked the wrong major and I didn't do anything to fix the problem because voices inside my head told me that I needed to try harder. I also thought someone wanted to harm me at college even though there was no evidence. I isolated myself a lot at college, I didn't make friends or study buddies. I'm at home right now. I lack motivation to do anything. I'm disorganized most of the time and also very mentally confused and scared. I can't believe I did this to myself. I blame myself for not seeking help. I caused shame and embarrassment. Can someone help me out here? I already freaked out and angered my family. I already ruined my academic career. I don't what I have done!