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Infinite Frustration

GaryC123

GaryC123

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Does anyone else out there feel like a piece of shit? I do. I feel like I'm always wrong in just about everything I think and do. I'm tired of being wrong about everything all the time. I want to be right for a change. However, unfortunately, in order to be right it seems I need to change some of my fundamental beliefs about the world and I just can't seem to do that. I'm stubborn. It's frustrating. I feel like I want a round world to fit in a square hole but it won't, no matter how often or how hard I try I can't make the world fit that square hole. And I want it to so badly.

I'd give specific examples of what I mean but it's kind of embarrassing for me to go into specifics right now. So I won't.
 
Midnight.Panda

Midnight.Panda

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I think that saying you're always wrong about everything is just the harsh inner critic in you. The problem sometimes starts with the way we look at ourselves and treat ourselves. This is a problem that my therapist has helped me with before. There can be a very mean person inside of us that likes to punish us even for simple mistakes/flaws which then feeds into the whole overgeneralisation that we're a "piece of shit" (which you and I aren't).

While we should always strive to better ourselves, we shouldn't beat ourselves up in that process. Acknowledge mistakes and flaws, but also acknowledge your strengths and accomplishments!

The fact that you even want to work on yourself is amazing. That motivation is half the battle! Have you thought about getting a therapist? It can be helpful to get someone to work through things like this (like how my therapist helped me).

And when you're talking about a round world not fitting into a square hole, do you mean that you feel like you can't fit in anywhere?
 
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pcoventry

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Yes I feel like shit - I am looking at my meds knowing the whole lot would put me on life support - My only regret is not having enough to not get that far..
 
GaryC123

GaryC123

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Yes I feel like shit - I am looking at my meds knowing the whole lot would put me on life support - My only regret is not having enough to not get that far..
I haven't been to a physician in a while but the last time I had blood drawn it indicated I might have some problems with some of my internal organs (can't remember which ones). I suspect the meds I'm on have probably caused it. So in a sense my medicine is doing me in, even though I just take it incrementally. But nothing really matters to me anymore anyway. I just want to lay in bed and disappear from the world, if such were only possible. I don't have ambitions. I don't have cares. I'm just here without purpose or direction.
 
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