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lastresorts

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Is anyone else in denial about their diagnosis?

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for years, and I was only diagnosed with bP2 last year.

I had an appointment with a MH nurse to get some advice as I was still struggling, and when we were there I made a comment about feeling amazing etc and needing that feeling back. At the end of the appointment she suggested that it may be cyclothymia and I could choose two routes, either have my GP try and manage it, or be referred to a psychiatrist.

Decided on the psychiatrist because she said he was likely to know more about the condition, and had an appointment about 2 months later. Hours later, and about 3 million questions they said that they diagnosied BP2, and that they would like to start me on medication.

Since then I have gone from 250mg of depakote to 750mg daily. I also take 150mg of sertraline, but, I just wonder if all of this is a bit of a mistake and there is nothing wrong with me. I know I am highly strung and have a tendancy towards agrophobia. Very rarely go out the house for anything other than work. But, what if this is all wrong and I am doing all this for nothing?

I struggle to sleep, and the psychiatrist has given me melatonin to try and help. But, I am having lady bleeding every day, from spotting to niagra falls and I have put a stone on since I went on the tablets.

I have asked my GP if he thinks my diagnosis could be wrong and could I stop the tablets and he said no and laughed at me ( thats no bad thing, we have that kind of relationship).

Its just shit. I feel rubbish, I can't cope with working full time, but I can't afford to give up work. I have tried to get PIP so I can drop my hours, and I keep failing. I just want to give up :(
 
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I keep wanting off the tablets, as they are shit.
They make me tired, they make me late for work, they make me even fatter than I already am ( I Am already a garbage monster out of fraggle rock)
As for the sertraline. I only take those as I Am scared of being sectioned. I cannot imagine anything worse than being sectioned and locked away from my family and dog. I don't think I would ever get out as it would make me 100% worse.
 
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i think you can ask for a second opinion from a different psychiatrist.
 
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Do you think it will make any difference?
I also asked the psychotherapist lady I go and see.
LOL, I think if I ask enough people someone will agree.
My mum/husband/sister just tell me to stfu and keep taking them.
 
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How much reading on BP2 have you done?
 
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Not much, but, the psych lady said she is impressed with my grasp on my condition. I don't really know if htats good or bad
 
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