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So I'm a 24 (F) I've been working since high school doing mostly customer service work , some retail, and office jobs.
Last year in October I got a job at a dental office doing an office related job. It was Monday-Friday but it was very stressful. It involved alot of catch up because they hadn't had a full time person doing the job for months. Eventually I reached my breaking point, I was so stressed out I literally secretly packed all my stuff up and left. I told my boss it was a family emergency and then never came back. I finally emailed my boss the next day I wasnt ever coming back to personal reasons. I was so embarrassed I didn't tell my husband for a few weeks. I felt like such a lover.
I had some other jobs that didn't work out after that because I literally would panic so bad during the 1st day or sometimes just wouldn't show up at all. I know its so unprofessional. But my anixety reached extremely high levels about working.
I just started a new job at a company that has been my dream to work out. It has to do with what I'm going back to school for currently. But I can barely concentrate in the training, the job is completely out of my realm of what I'm used to and I'm already feeling like I have no idea what to do. I've never been this lost in a job ever before.
I'm just ready to tell them the truth and that this just isn't a good fit for me. It is another customer support related job and I think thats some of my issue I've developed such a fear of jobs like that.
I'm thinking of just doing freelance work, which i have been doing already some. Because right now I don't think I can handle normal 9-5 work. I just keep messing up and end up leaving jobs. I feel so guilty though because my husband and family will be so disappointed. But I'm really having it rough. On top of that I'm pregnant with my first kid and my emotions are all over the place. I dont know if itd normal or its something I need to tell my DR and see about possible medication. I just know my mental state right now isn't good. I'm dealing with so much anxiety about work and dealing with intrusive thoughts. I have random almost suicidial thoughts and it scares me. On one hand I feel like I'm overacting and just being a brat. But its how I feel and I know its bad to consider quitting another job but I can't keep going through this. I need to feel clarity and not feel so horrible about myself. I need an stable income though because I have debt to pay off so I know if I quit I have such little time to find freelance work.
Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation? How did you get out of it? I have been in and out of therapy before but I am not seeing a therapist now. I just haven't found one 100% to connect and will be honest with.
Last year in October I got a job at a dental office doing an office related job. It was Monday-Friday but it was very stressful. It involved alot of catch up because they hadn't had a full time person doing the job for months. Eventually I reached my breaking point, I was so stressed out I literally secretly packed all my stuff up and left. I told my boss it was a family emergency and then never came back. I finally emailed my boss the next day I wasnt ever coming back to personal reasons. I was so embarrassed I didn't tell my husband for a few weeks. I felt like such a lover.
I had some other jobs that didn't work out after that because I literally would panic so bad during the 1st day or sometimes just wouldn't show up at all. I know its so unprofessional. But my anixety reached extremely high levels about working.
I just started a new job at a company that has been my dream to work out. It has to do with what I'm going back to school for currently. But I can barely concentrate in the training, the job is completely out of my realm of what I'm used to and I'm already feeling like I have no idea what to do. I've never been this lost in a job ever before.
I'm just ready to tell them the truth and that this just isn't a good fit for me. It is another customer support related job and I think thats some of my issue I've developed such a fear of jobs like that.
I'm thinking of just doing freelance work, which i have been doing already some. Because right now I don't think I can handle normal 9-5 work. I just keep messing up and end up leaving jobs. I feel so guilty though because my husband and family will be so disappointed. But I'm really having it rough. On top of that I'm pregnant with my first kid and my emotions are all over the place. I dont know if itd normal or its something I need to tell my DR and see about possible medication. I just know my mental state right now isn't good. I'm dealing with so much anxiety about work and dealing with intrusive thoughts. I have random almost suicidial thoughts and it scares me. On one hand I feel like I'm overacting and just being a brat. But its how I feel and I know its bad to consider quitting another job but I can't keep going through this. I need to feel clarity and not feel so horrible about myself. I need an stable income though because I have debt to pay off so I know if I quit I have such little time to find freelance work.
Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation? How did you get out of it? I have been in and out of therapy before but I am not seeing a therapist now. I just haven't found one 100% to connect and will be honest with.