- Mar 5, 2019
I've been struggling with my anxiety and depression for a really long time now, my 23rd birthday is just around the corner and I have been battling this since I was 14. I feel like I just get left behind in life, and I keep trying to do things like studying, working even volunteering but every time I start doing well it's like my brain just fights against me and I just get worse. I end up quitting before I finish anything because I feel so deeply unhappy, like I'm drowning in responsibility. I'm not working right now. I'm currently living at home with my mum and brother (who also suffer from mental illnesses) and it feels like I'm never going to 'grow up' and do the adult things I am supposed to be doing right now. I'm struggling to get up in the morning, to eat 3 times a day, even just go outside. I'm so confused as to why my brain is like this, and why I can't just live a 'normal' life. My dad is always so dissapointed in me, he just wants the best for me and he knows the best is earning an income, going out and seeing people, spending time with family etc. I just want to be alone, I just can't function in society.