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Lavender_Rose

Lavender_Rose

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So your either talking to your fruit loops or your playing some type of hard-core techno music with them from what I can gather.
 
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FallTrees000

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these couple of posts are more support than ive gotten pretty much my whole life, i appreciate your comments so much, i will open up and get more coherent. But tonight im devastated, i cant control myself, i dont want to be beligerant, im just so fucking hurt... i gave everything i had, what little i had...
Sounds like you relied on
Its been since november 22nd, ive never realy truly meant what i say to the few ive dated before this, i knew we were kids then but this was different, after being single so many years in my 20s i gave up on dating and actively go out of my way to reject any kindness i receive cause i feel i dont deserve it. im straight and when i met this person i couldnt tell if they were a boy or girl but all i knew was that i was overwhelmingly attracted, i was in a thrift store getting rung up in line by her and she ran outside before i left and confessed that since she was 16 had been admiring me for 5 years, she would see me on my bike or in the neighborhood and always wanted to say hi. that struck my heart in a way that i cant even type without crying, it meant so much to me that someone even cared about me at all, even if i didnt know them. so i slowly opened up and eventualy my darkness hurt her, im an open book and provide the tools to work together and change, but i think quarntine and her coming off antideppressants right before this all came together in this horrible breakup, i gave up all hope for years and i dont know how ill be able to recover from this.
It sounds like she loved you. Watching you for 5 years? Why would she feel a need to leave? What do you mean you couldn't tell if she was a guy or girl? Sorry for the questions, this just seems like a crazy story.
 
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FallTrees000

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these couple of posts are more support than ive gotten pretty much my whole life, i appreciate your comments so much, i will open up and get more coherent. But tonight im devastated, i cant control myself, i dont want to be beligerant, im just so fucking hurt... i gave everything i had, what little i had.
It sounds like she loved you. Watching you for 5 years? Why would she feel a need to leave? What do you mean you couldn't tell if she was a guy or girl? Sorry for the questions, this just seems like a crazy story.
 
Gaijin Gabber

Gaijin Gabber

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she had her breasts removed and was taking testosterone for a year before meeting me, she started detransitioning right when she met me, a little before i think
 
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