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I just scrolled back up and even im reluctant to read this book. keep scrolling mate, theres a better post out there.
I don't even know what to write anymore.
I don;t think I can go on like this.
I can't stop crying. I can't stop hurting my loved ones.
All I do is bring them down, its all I do whereever I go.
I think someones worth is determined by how much good they do in this world. and I just keep hurting people.
That thing I did when I was 10. I can not let it go!
I hate myself and I think I deserve to die.
I'm so scared to even leave the house, let alone attend a job interview or sit in a class of 30!
and I'm terrified to take their drugs. terrified they'll give me cancer or make me sick in some other way.
I have had counselling for a long time and don't think theres anything left to learn, not a whole lot anyway.
and at the end of the day I'll never know if i even deserve to be alive.
i cant put it out of my mind. any of it.
whenever i hear his name, it all comes flooding back.
what he did to me.
what he ultimately made my life.
what my parents did. how they neglected us and put their drug addictions first.
i have been the cause of every lost relationship.
my anxiety, my tempter, my scars, my negativity, my hopelessness.
i am here because my dog needs me and i have a 19 year old brother who is suicidal as well. and he confessed to me the thing he did that he hates himself for too. and i think it was ever slightly worse than mine. so if i kill myself... i recon he will too.
my parents are dumbfounded! they dont know why we are both so messed up. and we can't tell them.
i'm sturggling so much with bitterness. i'm angry at them a lot of the time for everything they didn;t do!
i can never have a child or a lover. how could i do that to someone.
scare my own child with my scars. or put the one i love through such pain.
even my job search worker doesn't know what job to get me. and she works with people with full blown disabilities!
every way i turn i see 10 foot barriers staring me down.
demons lurking in the darkness.
everyday i cry!!! everyday!! i cant stop!
reminders are everywhere.
its too hot for me to go anywhere in long sleeves. and i dont wanna risk bringing other down.
things like volunteering use to distract me, now i jsut break down.
im so scared.
my brothers in his bedroom and im hurting him just by letting myself be this way.
im tiered. i fight with this all the time. i fight to put it out of my mind. to stop snapping over everything. to stop being mean to my mum.
my mum who is so scared as well.
i'm filled with paranoia. everytime i get in my car i think im being followed. everytme something goes wrong, a light turns red, soemone sits up my ass, i'm sure its someone following me trying to piss me off. (this is just the tip of the iceburg)
my mum cant understand why id feel this way. why id feel like anyone was out to get me.
but that day is all i need. i'm sure they know what i did. i'm sure im being punished. i'm sure of it!!!
and i cant tell a soul.
i used to be surrounded by youth workers, who were at least paid to make me feel like i was cared for. now i have my mum and my brother and one guy at my job who seams to care. other than that.. theres no one.
my dad and i just had a huge fight. i had let him back into my life after 10 years of near no contact just to have him fill me with his poison.
he filled my mind with his theories of governments planning mass genocide to prolong their way of life. of mass plans to poison us with the food and drugs they supply us. of the teroist attacks that the govenrment carried out. of how doomed this world is etc etc etc
and now i dont know truth from paranoia!
and everytime i see him he adds wood to the fire. the last time we spoke he told me to get the fuck out of his house ad not come back til i earned some respect. told me i was the negative and abusive one. screamed and looked like he might come down on me like aton of bricks, fists a-swinging. he told me i wasnt his little girl anymore.and now i find myself grieving for a father who stopped lo ving me like that when i ceiesed to be cute and adorable.
and it feels me with anger and immense sadness.
but then i come straight back to you deserve this,
and its probably not the government at all, maybe its god.
my puppy is away for another 2 and a half weeks still. and she will be back and then 3 weeks later her puppy is coming to. but the deal means in another 3 months she leaves again for anothe 6 weeks. i used to be able to stay at my dads while i visited. now i have to camp alone and sleep in my tiny car which is the most nerve racking thing ever!
we'll have the puppy for company. but my puppy will still be away from me going through having puppies a foruth time. and my dad says it will means she;ll die sooner!!! i hate him! he's efn wrong damn it!
but then maybe this is just all my punishment.
somtime si think i should go to the cop station and let them decide my punishment. i'd know once and for all what i deserve. i cant work it out. i know i was young and i know what lead me to that day. but i dont know if its ever forgivable.
i keep wanting to kill myself.
i'm so hopeless.
i'm such a mess of a human being.
and theres so little keeping me here,
and im terified of the day my brother moves out and hes not around so much. he has alot to do with me not feeling so alone.
and then ym mum goes on about being able to cope after shes gone and how shes only got 20 years left! then i'll be truly alone. she's wrong too damn it! i need her!
how will i afford rent on centrelink. how will i cope being alone 24/7 again. i didn;t do well last time. thats why i left my seventh floor flat and moved 4 hours away from the city and all my youth workers and to my dad and his paranoia and the puppy he'd gotten for me.
he stole the last of my sanity and friendhips and gave me sheshe and a dose of poison. not that things were that greta before. and the relationships i had weren;t real.
but its better to have fake ones then nothing... right?
becker is on tv. i watche dthis episode 12 hours ago.
soemtimes i cant even watch tv anymore. im so scared i have cancer or soemthing. my gums hurt often and have this thing in my throat sometimes when swallow. oh and a strange growth doctors ssay looks normal i try not to think about it, but cancer ad's and the feelings are relentless.
im trying to find a way to be content with putting up with centrelink and volunteering forver, cause aint no one gonna hire my messed up, ex shop lifting ass (5years old and quit with much remorse!!) and forever anxious in shopping centres. 5 more years till i cant have them spent. then maybe i can be independent at least. if anyone will hire my crazy messed up shy as hell self.
i just feel like eveyr door has been closed and the windows baricaded and its all god trying to punish me.
the problem is. its not just me he's hurting. my mum suffers too. i fear what my madness is doing to her. it affects her health and i hate myself for this. i'm literally killing her.
i would have left by now no doubt if i could afford it.but then i know sheshe needs more than me. my depression means i cant give her what she needs, i get depressed and too scared to leave the louse and she suffers. its not fair.
if it was just me i'd cop it on the chin, but i cant keep hurting them. and i still dont know if i do deserve that much. bu im pretty sure i do...
im on the wait list for another counsellor. i was signed up for dbt but i missed 3 apontments ina row and nevrr heard from them again. i didnt mean to. i get stressed, unorganised and forget. sometimes i panic and cant leave the house. i cant even make it to a counselling session.
im terrifed to go and see that counsellor. they work with depression and anxiety and my problem is way bigger than just two mild mental illnesses. (no offence, it is bad if its the worst you;ve ever faced) i mean i used to jsut be anxious and depressed and id kill to go back to that! paranoid is the devil's best friend.
what am i gonna say. im too scared to tell anyone what i did. too scared to have them tell me that i really am evil and unforgivable.
too scared to see the look on their face.
how do i come to terms with never getting married, walking down the isle, concieving a child and raising one. its all this world has preapred me for.
is procreation not our great purpose, i mean really.
i have to believe it isn;t.
i doubt anyone will read this.
what could anyone say,
there is no hope left for me.
maybe i would be doing something good if i end this.
end the suffering i cause. i dont want to leave my puppy.but do i even deserve her?
this guy i work with is alone and living with his 80 year old mum. it looks like my destiny. sept he has a traineeship where i volunteer cause he works like crazy hard. they had to give the guy a job.
i dont have the energy to do that or the mental stability to socialise that often,.
that counselling service wont work with people who take drugs or have paranoia and i smoke pot. i cant quit, ive been in rehab 5 times. i want to try being treated without them focuising on my drug use. they cant be right 100 % of the time. some people must be able to use. i recon without my mum i would have to quit. she gets it for me. what am i gonna do without her. i dont know if i can lie about this part of my life to them. i'm so scared that by writting this online centrelink will find out and so will everyone else. efn thing in my throat! ent said come back if it gets worse.
my teeth are sore cause their majorly overcrowded and we cant afford to do anything about it. scared its causing serious issues...
well i think im spent.
i hate myself
sorry for bringing you down. i highly doubt anyone gives a shit anyway.
go have a cup of tea and watch something funny, you;ll forget about it.
i dont exoect anyone to say anything!
im evil, dont feel sorry for me. i dont deserve jack shit,
but my family does.
arghhh
help...
 
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Sorry you are hurting so much. I'm going to try and give a proper answer but it might take some time :)

Marliee x
 

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I just scrolled back up and even im reluctant to read this book. keep scrolling mate, theres a better post out there.
I don't even know what to write anymore.
I don;t think I can go on like this.
I can't stop crying. I can't stop hurting my loved ones.
All I do is bring them down, its all I do whereever I go.
I think someones worth is determined by how much good they do in this world. and I just keep hurting people.
Well you are making a good start in typing things down. I'm sure you don't bring them down but it must be so hard to be around them because of the reasons you have typed below. Someones worth isn't because of what you think. I don't really think anyone knows what may make them worthwhile and that is a good thing because if you think about it would make a pretty boring world if we all knew what to do. :hug1:


That thing I did when I was 10. I can not let it go!
I hate myself and I think I deserve to die.
I'm so scared to even leave the house, let alone attend a job interview or sit in a class of 30!
and I'm terrified to take their drugs. terrified they'll give me cancer or make me sick in some other way.
I have had counselling for a long time and don't think theres anything left to learn, not a whole lot anyway.
and at the end of the day I'll never know if i even deserve to be alive.
i cant put it out of my mind. any of it.
Of course you deserve to live, not die and I'm also sorry that you hate yourself. Can I tell you some good things I can see in you just by reading your post?

Brave stands out.
Caring.
Forgiving.

Those are the three to me that stands out.

I'm sorry that the counselling doesn't seem to be working any more, can you maybe talk to your counsellar about how you are feeling about it?


whenever i hear his name, it all comes flooding back.
what he did to me.
what he ultimately made my life.
Huge :hug1:'s I can't even start to imagine what you have been through and what he did to you. I just wanted to remind you that whatever he did really wasn't your fault at all. I know it's easy to say don't let what he did ruin your life because I know how hard it is and it's not just something that you can forget easily.


what my parents did. how they neglected us and put their drug addictions first.
I guess that means that you had to grow up quickly and help take care of your brother and at times your parents. That can be damaging to anyone, especially as a child. :hug1:'s


i have been the cause of every lost relationship.
my anxiety, my tempter, my scars, my negativity, my hopelessness.
Remember, every relationship has two people in it. I'm sorry you feel you are to blame but not everything would of been down to you in my opinion.


i am here because my dog needs me and i have a 19 year old brother who is suicidal as well. and he confessed to me the thing he did that he hates himself for too. and i think it was ever slightly worse than mine. so if i kill myself... i recon he will too.
I'm glad you have things to live for. A pet can be brilliant to keep someone alive. In my darkest times my dog has been the reason why I carried on, no matter how much I wanted to die myself.

Has your brother sought any help for how he is feeling? Please try not to burden yourself too much on his troubles. I'm not saying don't totally, you are his sister of course you are but don't take on too much. :hug1:


my parents are dumbfounded! they dont know why we are both so messed up. and we can't tell them.
i'm sturggling so much with bitterness. i'm angry at them a lot of the time for everything they didn;t do!
You have every right to be angry with your parents, I'm sorry that they just don't understand how you are feeling how you are. Maybe it's because they don't want to believe that they did all the things they did, like they can't accept it. Of course that is no excuse. :hug1:


i can never have a child or a lover. how could i do that to someone.
scare my own child with my scars. or put the one i love through such pain.
I think you would make a good mom but I agree that at the moment with how you are feeling it's best not to bring someone else in the world. Now I'm not saying that I believe you should never have a child because I don't. I think when you are feeling better you will make a great Mom. A child will always love their mothers no matter what their past and scars. :hug1:


even my job search worker doesn't know what job to get me. and she works with people with full blown disabilities!
every way i turn i see 10 foot barriers staring me down.
demons lurking in the darkness.
everyday i cry!!! everyday!! i cant stop!
reminders are everywhere.
its too hot for me to go anywhere in long sleeves. and i dont wanna risk bringing other down.
things like volunteering use to distract me, now i jsut break down.
I'm sorry you can't find somewhere where you can distract yourself enough. Have you thought of trying to go to some sort of social group if there is one available and slowly build yourself up with being in social situations, taking it at your own pace. Even if to start with it's for a minute. :hug1:


im so scared.
my brothers in his bedroom and im hurting him just by letting myself be this way.
im tiered. i fight with this all the time. i fight to put it out of my mind. to stop snapping over everything. to stop being mean to my mum.
my mum who is so scared as well.
You aren't hurting him by feeling the way you do. I bet he understands more than you think he does. See, you have a fighting spirit, you try your best to fight all of this. :hug1:


i'm filled with paranoia. everytime i get in my car i think im being followed. everytme something goes wrong, a light turns red, soemone sits up my ass, i'm sure its someone following me trying to piss me off. (this is just the tip of the iceburg)
my mum cant understand why id feel this way. why id feel like anyone was out to get me.
but that day is all i need. i'm sure they know what i did. i'm sure im being punished. i'm sure of it!!!
and i cant tell a soul.
You feel like this in my opinion because this is how you were made to feel when you are younger, you went through so much hurt that you kinda expect it. There is nothing wrong with that, in some ways it is a natural reaction to things.

I know you said you can't tell a soul but would you feel comfortable talking to your counsellor about it?


i used to be surrounded by youth workers, who were at least paid to make me feel like i was cared for. now i have my mum and my brother and one guy at my job who seams to care. other than that.. theres no one.
I'm sorry you don't have anyone around you. I think that might make trying to go to some sort of social group a good idea, to see whether there is anything that is of interest to you and trying to find others with the same interest?


my dad and i just had a huge fight. i had let him back into my life after 10 years of near no contact just to have him fill me with his poison.
he filled my mind with his theories of governments planning mass genocide to prolong their way of life. of mass plans to poison us with the food and drugs they supply us. of the teroist attacks that the govenrment carried out. of how doomed this world is etc etc etc
and now i dont know truth from paranoia!
and everytime i see him he adds wood to the fire. the last time we spoke he told me to get the fuck out of his house ad not come back til i earned some respect. told me i was the negative and abusive one. screamed and looked like he might come down on me like aton of bricks, fists a-swinging. he told me i wasnt his little girl anymore.and now i find myself grieving for a father who stopped lo ving me like that when i ceiesed to be cute and adorable.
and it feels me with anger and immense sadness.
but then i come straight back to you deserve this,
and its probably not the government at all, maybe its god.
Why is it that you let your Dad back in your life? You don't have to answer of course :)

I think that being around him is the worse thing for you at the moment. He seems to be triggering all kinds of feelings in you and possibly making you more ill?

Again, nothing was your fault. Maybe he is trying to deflect the blame because he is in denial about how he treated you or in his world did nothing wrong.

I don't say that often but having him in your life is not a good idea in my opinion and you need to give the both of you more space. maybe if you feel you need to stay in contact make phone contact instead, at least then if he starts saying things to you, you can hang up?


my puppy is away for another 2 and a half weeks still. and she will be back and then 3 weeks later her puppy is coming to. but the deal means in another 3 months she leaves again for anothe 6 weeks. i used to be able to stay at my dads while i visited. now i have to camp alone and sleep in my tiny car which is the most nerve racking thing ever!
we'll have the puppy for company. but my puppy will still be away from me going through having puppies a foruth time. and my dad says it will means she;ll die sooner!!! i hate him! he's efn wrong damn it!
Is there some sort of agreement you have that your dog has to have puppies? If not why not keep her without sending her away to have more puppies, just so you have her with you to distract you?


but then maybe this is just all my punishment.
somtime si think i should go to the cop station and let them decide my punishment. i'd know once and for all what i deserve. i cant work it out. i know i was young and i know what lead me to that day. but i dont know if its ever forgivable.
No hun, none of this is punishment for anything I would say.

You said it, with whatever you did, you were so young. Of course I don't know what it was. (and I'm not asking you to tell me) :hug1:


i keep wanting to kill myself.
i'm so hopeless.
i'm such a mess of a human being.
and theres so little keeping me here,
and im terified of the day my brother moves out and hes not around so much. he has alot to do with me not feeling so alone.
and then ym mum goes on about being able to cope after shes gone and how shes only got 20 years left! then i'll be truly alone. she's wrong too damn it! i need her!
how will i afford rent on centrelink. how will i cope being alone 24/7 again. i didn;t do well last time. thats why i left my seventh floor flat and moved 4 hours away from the city and all my youth workers and to my dad and his paranoia and the puppy he'd gotten for me.
he stole the last of my sanity and friendhips and gave me sheshe and a dose of poison. not that things were that greta before. i was ready to throw myself off that balcony. the relationships i had weren;t real.
but its better to have fake ones then nothing... right?
Could you and your brother move in together, I don't know how this all works where you are but maybe it's an option so you are both out of the situation?

becker is on tv. i watche dthis episode 12 hours ago.
soemtimes i cant even watch tv anymore. im so scared i have cancer or soemthing. my gums hurt often and have this thing in my throat sometimes when swallow. oh and a strange growth doctors ssay looks normal i try not to think about it, but cancer ad's and the feelings are relentless.
im trying to find a way to be content with putting up with centrelink and volunteering forver, cause aint no one gonna hire my messed up, ex shop lifting ass (5years old and quit with much remorse!!) and forever anxious in shopping centres. 5 more years till i cant have them spent. then maybe i can be independent at least. if anyone will hire my crazy messed up shy as hell self.
It might take awhile depending on the job situation where you are but I'm sure someone will hire you :hug1:


i just feel like eveyr door has been closed and the windows baricaded and its all god trying to punish me.
the problem is. its not just me he's hurting. my mum suffers too. i fear what my madness is doing to her. it affects her health and i hate myself for this. i'm literally killing her.
i would have left by now no doubt if i could afford it.but then i know sheshe needs more than me. my depression means i cant give her what she needs, i get depressed and too scared to leave the louse and she suffers. its not fair.
if it was just me i'd cop it on the chin, but i cant keep hurting them. and i still dont know if i do deserve that much. bu im pretty sure i do...
Again think about moving out with your brother?


im on the wait list for another counsellor. i was signed up for dbt but i missed 3 apontments ina row and nevrr heard from them again. i didnt mean to. i get stressed, unorganised and forget. sometimes i panic and cant leave the house. i cant even make it to a counselling session.
im terrifed to go and see that counsellor. they work with depression and anxiety and my problem is way bigger than just two mild mental illnesses. (no offence, it is bad if its the worst you;ve ever faced) i mean i used to jsut be anxious and depressed and id kill to go back to that! paranoid is the devil's best friend.
what am i gonna say. im too scared to tell anyone what i did. too scared to have them tell me that i really am evil and unforgivable.
too scared to see the look on their face.
how do i come to terms with never getting married, walking down the isle, concieving a child and raising one. its all this world has preapred me for.
is procreation not our great purpose, i mean really.
i have to believe it isn;t.
Ahh ok that answers a question about earlier. Do you think you could contact the place where you had the DBT and try and get back onto their books? From what I've heard from people on here it is really good but as I said, that is what I have read, I have never had it myself :)


i doubt anyone will read this.
what could anyone say,
You didn't figure on me reading and answering didn't you :)


there is no hope left for me.
maybe i would be doing something good if i end this.
end the suffering i cause. i dont want to leave my puppy.but do i even deserve her?
this guy i work with is alone and living with his 80 year old mum. it looks like my destiny. sept he has a traineeship where i volunteer cause he works like crazy hard. they had to give the guy a job.
i dont have the energy to do that or the mental stability to socialise that often,.
that counselling service wont work with people who take drugs or have paranoia and i smoke pot. i cant quit, ive been in rehab 5 times. i want to try being treated without them focuising on my drug use. they cant be right 100 % of the time. some people must be able to use. i recon without my mum i would have to quit. she gets it for me. what am i gonna do without her. i dont know if i can lie about this part of my life to them. i'm so scared that by writting this online centrelink will find out and so will everyone else. efn thing in my throat! ent said come back if it gets worse.
There is hope left for you, you just can't see it right now but hopefully one day you will :hug1:

You do deserve your puppy and you deserve to live for her. You are her world and it would hurt her so much as well as your brother if you really hurt yourself.


my teeth are sore cause their majorly overcrowded and we cant afford to do anything about it. scared its causing serious issues...
Have you thought of trying to get a second opinion?


well i think im spent.
i hate myself
sorry for bringing you down. i highly doubt anyone gives a shit anyway.
go have a cup of tea and watch something funny, you;ll forget about it.
i dont exoect anyone to say anything!
im evil, dont feel sorry for me. i dont deserve jack shit,
but my family does.
arghhh
help...
You haven't brought me down at all. I just hope my words/ramblings make a little bit of sense and maybe give you some ideas?

You aren't evil, not at all in my opinion.

Take care

Marliee x
 

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Hi hun, just wondering how you are feeling?

Keep us updated if you are able to.

Marliee x
 
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Hi Marliee,
Thank you, thank you, thank you for taking the time to reply the way you did. No, I really wasn't expecting a reply, certainly not one like yours.
Today is better so far and your reply has helped a little.
I think I will try and link back in with dbt. Hopefully I don't need a new referral.
I haven't replied to my dad and I dont think I will. I'm just scared of the next time I have to see him. Scared of how he will treat me.
I let him back in cause I thought maybe he'd chsnged n that my teen self hadn't been fair. So I forgave him. I never would have moved in with him if not for sheshe. I couldnt say no.
I think I can mention keeping sheshe witg me for her last litter. I had forgotten about asking that and was reluctant because the puppies are worth So much. But i think ots better tgan this. I think I'll be better once she's back. Is hard to be so depressed with her around.
I had asked for a referal to a drop in centre but I never heard anything. Not sure if my anxiety would let me. Might ask my counselor for another referral when I meet them.
do you think I should bother with the other counsellng service or just try dbt
my brother takes meds and has a mate that visits him weekly. I thought about living with him but I think we'd fight Too much.
again, thank you for trying so hard. You are probably right. With time, socializing should hopefully get easier.
Thank you for your kindness. It meant a lot to recieve your replies.
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I came to tell you some things, and you may not believe me...but, I can tell you that I know them from experience. It's how I know that, if you find the strength to work through this, you will be able to help people in your same position...better than anyone else.

I need you to know, that it is actually not possible for you to hurt anyone else in the way you are thinking. For example, if I say to you, "Hey you dummy in the red shirt, you suck!" but you are wearing a blue shirt...well, I must be mistaken, right? Believe in other people, enough to cut yourself some slack. You are only responsible for your own happiness. No one else's.

You do deserve to be here, as evidenced by you being here. If you did not deserve to be, you simply wouldn't be. Understand, that you have always done the best that you knew how, you never had a negative intention. The intention to feel better is a positive one. Forgive yourself...your past has made you who you are today, grow from it. Give your past self the love that they needed in those moments you were without.

Understand, that the people who were not there for you, were also doing the best that they knew how. Some people have harder lives than others, and they are required to be stronger...more is asked of them, because they are bound for greatness. Embrace. Always embrace. Embrace your fears, find out what you are believing that is making you afraid. What do you want to do with your life? What are your dreams? How can you contribute to the world better than anyone else? What is your definition of a beautiful life?

As long as you are judging the people who were not there for you as "bad" you will be judging yourself for not being there for other people. Have compassion on those people, so that you can have compassion on yourself. It is an illusion that you are against them by hating them, in fact you are agreeing with them. If you want to be against what they stand for, you need to forgive them, and take responsibility. You are beautiful just the way your are, accept the way you are right now. Allow it to be ok, no matter how you think of yourself, be that. If you are lost, be lost, and you will be found...you have a purpose, and your life has the potential to be great.

You've got to find the strength to fight. Trust your heart, it's always right. In this life there's only here and now.

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xClouds Lost and I do not know the way back. Mental Health Experiences 7
H I feel Lost , I don't know myself anymore Mental Health Experiences 3
S Struggling to get my life back together after grief - ive lost everything and i dont know what to do Mental Health Experiences 1
ineffectualdemon Feeling lost on what to do Mental Health Experiences 2
S I'm 20, and I feel like I've lost faith in science... Mental Health Experiences 5
S Lost Memory due to Depression? Mental Health Experiences 3
X I feel so lost at the moment Mental Health Experiences 2
M Really need to find a vent. So lost and detatched. Mental Health Experiences 3
L I lost myself Mental Health Experiences 3
Ghost_Owl How much of your life do you feel you have lost to mental illness? Mental Health Experiences 10
H I genuinely do not know how to go forward/ lost hope Mental Health Experiences 2
M Lost control of my life Mental Health Experiences 2
T Lost filling driving me mad Mental Health Experiences 1
Y Totally lost after breakup Mental Health Experiences 10
M Feeling Lost... dont know where to turn! Mental Health Experiences 1
N Sooo, I'm pretty lost Mental Health Experiences 1
C So lost Mental Health Experiences 1
J Feel lost and unable too leave this rut Mental Health Experiences 1
C really feeling lost Mental Health Experiences 2
A Just so lost Mental Health Experiences 3
M Lost of intelligence/executive functioning. feeling awkward and blank Mental Health Experiences 1
J Feeling lost still Mental Health Experiences 1
L Lost my parents Mental Health Experiences 6
T Lost confused helpless Mental Health Experiences 1
D I feel lost in life Mental Health Experiences 2
K I'm lost Mental Health Experiences 2
Gajolene We're often happiest when we're lost in the moment. Mental Health Experiences 3
S I feel lost Mental Health Experiences 4
M A bit lost and really need answers Mental Health Experiences 4
I Lost confidence to face others post delivery Mental Health Experiences 2
P Lost A Friend Mental Health Experiences 3
A Feeling lost and alone Mental Health Experiences 2
N I've lost all hope and oddly feel unburdened Mental Health Experiences 2
R I lost my job and feel dreadful. Mental Health Experiences 6

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