- Sep 23, 2009
I am scared, i havent been diagnoised which makes it a hell lot more scary im not even sure if its biopolar im suffering from but all i know is on a day to day basis i have severe mood swings i can feel intensly high and hyperactive where i talk a thousand words per minute and then i might get back to 'normal' but usually i just crash and burn and just feel really depressed and sad intensly to the point of wanting to end it all. I too abused cocain and cannabis have feelings of exhilaration, disorientation, lack of insight, incoherent speech, impulsiveness (especially with men), racing thoughts, exhaustion, have loads of energy, lack of sle ep, too much sleep, feeling 'high' and sometimes believe im meant to be here for a certain purpose I think all my sypmtoms indicate bioplar but because it happens on a day to day basis and the ''episodes'' dont last for long periods of time its hard to diagnoise, i have the typical symptoms but they dont last as long as the typical bipolar. It all came to a head when i tried to top myself last week and someone mentioned bioplar, and now im convinced i have it or at least some sort of variation of the disorder. Im seeing a doctor tomoz but until then im just wondering wot the hell is going on.