- Jan 31, 2019
- White Plains, NY
I woke up this morning feeling like I'd been drugged. I could barely stand. I was walking into walls. Hitting my head. I went back to sleep hopingit would go away and it didn't. For hours. I finally showered and felt better for a few hours and then the horrible wind and snow came and I couldn't leave my home. I was terrified all night thinking the power was going to go out and I was going to freeze to death. Then a few hours ago, the nausea started and it won't go away. I've been having diarrhea all day. Something is wrong and I have to somehow get through tonight. I don't know how. I usually swallow at least 2 Valium tablets every night and Benadryl. I can't do that feeling this sick. I'll be awake all night if I don't. I'm scared to death. I have a bucket next to my bed in case I vomit. I'm really suffering. And it's well below zero outside. Maybe everything isn't that bad. Perhaps I'll improve enough in the next few hours to get a little drug induced sleep. That's the best case scenario. I just want to get through the night. Without puking. Or suddenly developing a fever. My only thought is that it's food poisoning. But my mom has me scared to death that it's the stainless steel cleaner from an aerosol can that a janitor was spraying while I was doing my laundry in the basement of my apartment building. I should've left immediately but I was afraid to leave my clothes alone with him. Then there was some kind of plumbing emergency in the apartment underneath me for hours last night and who knows what chemicals they were working with - could have been soldering pipes. I'm scared to death. My nasal passages feel weird. My stomach and intestines feel like someone's tying them up making balloon puppets and I feel nauseated. I just want to make it through the night. Without puking.