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Hi Fairy Fountain,
Have you tried distracting yourself? I'm so sorry you've been triggered.
We care here, we can also listen. Do you have a crisis team you can phone?
Sending you lots of hugs
 
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How are you doing now? I know the feeling you have. But I also know I have not met anyone that was not good enough. We all have value in one way or another. Its just a shame that many of us can see it in someone else and not ourselfs.

I hope you are ok.
 
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Hi Fairy Fountain,
Have you tried distracting yourself? I'm so sorry you've been triggered.
We care here, we can also listen. Do you have a crisis team you can phone?
Sending you lots of hugs
I listened to music last night so I could think of something else. That helped me. I didn't self harm which I'm glad about. I just felt so depressed because I feel like my life is a joke. Thank you and sending you hugs too. :hug:
 
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How are you doing now? I know the feeling you have. But I also know I have not met anyone that was not good enough. We all have value in one way or another. Its just a shame that many of us can see it in someone else and not ourselfs.

I hope you are ok.
I'm doing a little bit better now. Thank you. I'm sorry you also go through feelings like this. It's scary to feel so lonely and depressed.
 
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Then we both did not SH, that is a win. It is scary yes.

I saw in your other post that you feel like your life is a joke. Same here. But I also think that people are interesting. I am sure if we were to talk then it would be clear so soon why your life is not a joke. And maybe even see the richness that is fairy fountain.
 
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Then we both did not SH, that is a win. It is scary yes.

I saw in your other post that you feel like your life is a joke. Same here. But I also think that people are interesting. I am sure if we were to talk then it would be clear so soon why your life is not a joke. And maybe even see the richness that is fairy fountain.
Thank you. I just feel like my life is a joke because most things seem to be going wrong. I'm gaining more and more weight, dealing with PCOS, going to doctors and they have trouble helping me. I feel like people are laughing at me and talking about me. I try to focus on things that I love, but the depression takes over all the time.
 
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From what I understand about PCOS I think so many women that have it struggle with this so much. I think the feeling of people laughing at you comes from inside? I feel like being judged by everyone and failing them all. But when I ask them sometimes its not the case.

When I read your post I was not laughing. I was thinking that I would give you a hug and what I could do to help.

And then to have depression on top of it. Like a blanket being thrown over everything you enjoy and saying lets store this somewhere else.

Please keep trying with the doctors though. I thought for many years everyone was like me. Untill after years of searching they found out I had multiple disorders. One being depression. Its not easy but please keep going.
 
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From what I understand about PCOS I think so many women that have it struggle with this so much. I think the feeling of people laughing at you comes from inside? I feel like being judged by everyone and failing them all. But when I ask them sometimes its not the case.

When I read your post I was not laughing. I was thinking that I would give you a hug and what I could do to help.

And then to have depression on top of it. Like a blanket being thrown over everything you enjoy and saying lets store this somewhere else.

Please keep trying with the doctors though. I thought for many years everyone was like me. Untill after years of searching they found out I had multiple disorders. One being depression. Its not easy but please keep going.
Thank you so much. I will continue going to doctors and see what they say. PCOS is really making me feel awful. I have weight gain and hirsutism and I feel ugly. I just want to hide from the world forever. But at the same time I want to live life and enjoy it. I just feel like PCOS and my mental illness is controlling my entire life right now. But I will continue trying to fix my life. Thank you again.
 
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But I will continue trying to fix my life.
This gave me a huge smile!

You are so worth this. I know how difficult it can be. I too feel ugly. I feel the need to hide myself from the world.

I can understand how weight gain and hirsutism can make you feel that way. And your feelings are yours and they are true. But if I look at what I find attractive in a woman. There are so many things that come to mind and weight has nothing to with it. As does hirsutism.

Be kind to yourself.
 
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