- Dec 21, 2020
I feel like self harming again. I'll never be good enough.
I listened to music last night so I could think of something else. That helped me. I didn't self harm which I'm glad about. I just felt so depressed because I feel like my life is a joke. Thank you and sending you hugs too.Hi Fairy Fountain,
Have you tried distracting yourself? I'm so sorry you've been triggered.
We care here, we can also listen. Do you have a crisis team you can phone?
Sending you lots of hugs
I'm doing a little bit better now. Thank you. I'm sorry you also go through feelings like this. It's scary to feel so lonely and depressed.How are you doing now? I know the feeling you have. But I also know I have not met anyone that was not good enough. We all have value in one way or another. Its just a shame that many of us can see it in someone else and not ourselfs.
I hope you are ok.
Thank you. I just feel like my life is a joke because most things seem to be going wrong. I'm gaining more and more weight, dealing with PCOS, going to doctors and they have trouble helping me. I feel like people are laughing at me and talking about me. I try to focus on things that I love, but the depression takes over all the time.Then we both did not SH, that is a win. It is scary yes.
I saw in your other post that you feel like your life is a joke. Same here. But I also think that people are interesting. I am sure if we were to talk then it would be clear so soon why your life is not a joke. And maybe even see the richness that is fairy fountain.
Thank you so much. I will continue going to doctors and see what they say. PCOS is really making me feel awful. I have weight gain and hirsutism and I feel ugly. I just want to hide from the world forever. But at the same time I want to live life and enjoy it. I just feel like PCOS and my mental illness is controlling my entire life right now. But I will continue trying to fix my life. Thank you again.From what I understand about PCOS I think so many women that have it struggle with this so much. I think the feeling of people laughing at you comes from inside? I feel like being judged by everyone and failing them all. But when I ask them sometimes its not the case.
When I read your post I was not laughing. I was thinking that I would give you a hug and what I could do to help.
And then to have depression on top of it. Like a blanket being thrown over everything you enjoy and saying lets store this somewhere else.
Please keep trying with the doctors though. I thought for many years everyone was like me. Untill after years of searching they found out I had multiple disorders. One being depression. Its not easy but please keep going.
This gave me a huge smile!But I will continue trying to fix my life.