I'm new! depression and social phobia :/

[halflife]

I've joined this site because i've been feeling low for a while now. i have social phobia and its so bad i cant even speak to my best friend anymore or my mother. i push everyone away and i really dont mean to.I get so irratated and feel so uncomfortable around absolutley everyone!
I'm currently in my second year of college and even though the first year was not easy atall!!!! i'm finding this year so difficult to cope with :/ i dont speak to anyone in my class because i panic when anyone speaks to me and i just go blank...i know this isnt the real me....well im hoping its not as ive been like this for as long as i can remember, there are times when it gets better for a few months but there are also times where it unbearable! like now...
I've been taking mirtazipine for a month now and it doesnt seem to be working, anyone else had experiences with this medication?
I have an appointment with a surgeon to talk about an operation he can do to get rid of my blushing but i've heard alot of bad things about it. I also have an appointment with a nurse for counselling which i tried a few years ago but no success! i feel like surgery is my only hope.
sorry to go on but i was just wondering if anyone feels the same....i just want to be a normal girl who can express her self in normal situations and be contempt with my life. I'm not asking for much...or am i?
xxx

 

[pinkmetalgirl]

Hi

No, you're not asking for much at all - feeling cool with who you are and where you're at is completely reasonable ... as is being able to chat to other people and feel comfortably enough to express yourself.

Congrats on getting through your first year - i'm studying at the mo so know how hard it can be. The first time I went to uni I dropped out quite soon into the year (and at that point I couldn't even go into the classroom!). So actually getting in to the room and sitting there, even if you can't speak to people at the mo takes lots of guts

I've never been on those meds, so can't comment. Trying counselling or CBT's a good plan, tho. My mum tried hypnotherapy (with someone registered with Anxiety UK - they're a national charity that specialise in anxiety disorders and have a scheme where they offer cheap therapy to members - http://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/help.php). That really helped her deal with a really difficult phobia she had. A few years later she's still lots better. I've known others to find CBT quite good.

I guess what i'm trying to say is that there are lots of options - it's just finding the right one for you. Hang in there (and keep talking to people on here too - don't bottle stuff up)

take care x PMG

 

[keepsafe]

to the forum halflife - hope you find it of some kind of benefit to you
KS

 

[honeyquince]

Welcome to the forum and well done for talking about your situation here. That can be a really big step to make and you've done that!

I've taken, and am currently on mirtazapine for depression - have you got the oral dispersible ones - that's what I'm on. I let it fizz once and it tasted absolutely foul so now I just swallow them.

The first time I took them they didn't seem to have any effect on me but the second time they were in combination with three other anti-depressants and they seemed to get everything working (though it was also in combination with ECT). I really hope that they have a positive effect on you though remember like most AD's they can take a few weeks to kick in.

Keep posting here and I hope things improve soon.

Take care,
Honey

 

[quality factor]

Hi and .

Hope you find this a good place to be.

QF.

 

[honeyrose]

Hello, I am new here as well. You have done well to get on so well. I had Agoraphobia, and social phobia and mono phobia. I can relate to your not being able to speak to friends. I could not speak to my next door neighbour without getting in a panic. I was very isolated, so you are doing well with your college course to stay there.

I went to a hypnotherpist and that helped alot, I can now talk to most people and sometimes start up the conversation.

I can relate to walking down the street and being afraid to meet anyone you know.

 

[honeyquince]

Welcome to the forum Honeyrose, good to have you here!

 

[quality factor]

to the forum,honeyrose,hope you
find it a useful place to be.

QF.

 

[keepsafe]

to the forum hope you find it helpful

KS