Im new and really struggling

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Haylz88

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Hi im new here and i now realise ive had issues for years. A bit of background. Im 29 years old and the past 4.5 years have been really difficult. Ive been treated for anxiety and depression after having my son and reallu struggling. The meds have helped but not completely, ive been on the highest dose of the "non specialised" medication and currently on sertraline. Up until 3/4 weeks ago i was coping to the best of my abilities thinking i was normal and nothing was wrong. I had a major crash which forced me back to the doctors and they put me through to spor "mental health team" as URGENT. Ive got my 1st appointment on the 9th. Im going through a period of not knowing who i am, im self distructive, i lack emotions unless it regards my son and feel like im a robot on auto. I dont care about myself or my life and have actually made plans to kill myself twice in these 4 weeks. My ex is really important to me but then as always ive messed that up and we was getting along fine until this weekend till he found out about my self destructiveness. Now he hates me and ive lost his support. Ive failed my son due too all this. Ive done research like everybody does but im fitting into 3 personility disorders this cant be so can it?
 
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hi and welcome to the forums

I hope you find some help.
 
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:welcome: Sounds like you're struggling. Can you call your mental health team and let them know what is going on? I hope that you feel better soon. x
 
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Last and only time i called this crisis team i got this woman who was so demeaning i felt worse after the calls. Im hoping in person they are different c
 
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:welcome:Haylz,

sorry to hear you are struggling.Lacking feelings being numb and wanting to die,sounds familiar to me as does losing support cos of being destructive....it is a nightmare I know I have been there.It can and will get better and you will be well again.It can be a shock to find out some of the people meant to help you are very uncaring and can make things worse but some really are good and do help,don't let the bad ones destroy you,keep on trying to overcome and you will.

I am here to help and listen if you need me.

Hugs:hug:Sly.xxx
 
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Thank you for your kind words. I miss smiling the most and waking up fresh rather than having to drag myself out of bed everyday x
 
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:welcome: to the forum. I hope your appt on 9th goes well. Please call them before then if you need to though. I hope writing here helps a bit too
 
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welcome to mentalhealthforum. sit back on our couch, sip some cold root beer, and enjoy the posts, my man
 
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Hey Haylz88,

Welcome to the forum :)

Much love <3
 
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