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JohnCop

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Hello All,

I have joined this group to be able to share my story and read others. I've got to the point where I feel my friends must be sick of me.
I have suffered depression all of my adult live and it has cost me 3 relationships including the last one which lasted 12 years but ended 2 years ago. I live alone having given up my factory job which did not help my moods, and I now work as a handyman when I can get out of bed. I'm lonely yet avoid people, I'm bored but too tired to do anything and all I seen to do is look back on past mistakes. I am at the point where I would love to go to sleep and never wake up! I have 4 grown up children who I love to bits but i'm so ashamed of myself. My sister has been diagnosed privately as Bipolar and wants me to get tested, but i just lost interest in anything.
 
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NorasDad

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Hello.

So you've got depression - pretty bad and pretty typical case it sound like.

What are 2 things you would recommend to a person like you? Obviously you don't care at this point, but if a person did, what would you think are the 2 (only 2) things she should do?
 
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Fairy Lucretia

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Hello All,

I have joined this group to be able to share my story and read others. I've got to the point where I feel my friends must be sick of me.
I have suffered depression all of my adult live and it has cost me 3 relationships including the last one which lasted 12 years but ended 2 years ago. I live alone having given up my factory job which did not help my moods, and I now work as a handyman when I can get out of bed. I'm lonely yet avoid people, I'm bored but too tired to do anything and all I seen to do is look back on past mistakes. I am at the point where I would love to go to sleep and never wake up! I have 4 grown up children who I love to bits but i'm so ashamed of myself. My sister has been diagnosed privately as Bipolar and wants me to get tested, but i just lost interest in anything.
welcome to the forum x
i identify with some of what you say ,especially about being lonely but not wanting to be around people
your children can be your incentive t carry on? i think it would be worth you seeing a professional
imagine if they could offer some treatment that would help bring an end to your dark days
you are very welcome here ,lots of love
fairy Lu x
 
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JohnCop

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Thankyou, I am trying hard honestly x
 
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Hi there John, welcome to the forum.
Sorry to read how bad you are feeling, so glad that you have found us so that there is some company on line at least.
Have you been back to your GP at all, please don't try and do this all on your own. Don't be put off if your last GP was not much help, you deserve support and ask for it.
Keep talking here if you find it a help.
:)
 
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NorasDad

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Dude, you're not just trying hard, you are succeeding!

Depression is the most lethal mental illness there is. OCDs like me hoard and worry until they're 90. People like you literally forget the value of their own lives. You're above ground. You're winning.

So forget about doing things that cause you pain, but learn to give YOURSELF advice. Learn that there is a part of your brain you can't take seriously because that guy (really just part of a guy) is a fucking mope. He's a nightmare. He can't see the good in anything.

You can, but only if you'll take your advice from the sensible person inside you who is no doubt completely freaking out. It's like climbing a mountain: it's ok to freak out but keep climbing for Pete's sake.

There's a great view at the top and you'll feel like an idiot if you don't try.
 
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