- May 7, 2011
It just creeps in at times. This is mainly when I am struggling with extra jobs etc that need doing in and outside the house. I get to think like I cannot handle this much longer without some support. Then I embroidered it and think you are just some kind of useless human being anyway and your children will be relieved to see you die. Then they can be free of you. It's the lack of emotional support on a day to day basis that I find particularly hard. Sometimes everything I have to sort out just seems like a mountain I must climb and I have no idea where the strength is coming from. I can either around all the day, caught up in my head and making little progress. Anyway my pup needs to eat tonight so I had better go and find her some meat. And I must take my tablets.