- Jun 26, 2014
- Avenue Q in the US
I honestly think I'm suffering a midlife crisis even before I'm 30. The main reasons that I think this are I really have nothing to show what I've done in my life, I am stuck living on welfare checks and have no paying job, I dropped out of college, I have no friends, and I can't get anyone to like me longer than an average of two weeks before I get abandoned and the other person act as if I never existed. I then try to fill the void by buying stuff I don't even need. The worst part is that I spent about $500 on a certain item so I could get some pleasure (in polite terms) that I could only get with another person. I'm pretty sure if I had the $6000 to spend plus shipping and handling, I'd buy a male Real Doll and end up being the real life gay version of Lars and the Real Girl. The worst part would be me settling for a piece of sillicone because it's the ONLY thing that won't ever abandon me and the closest thing to a guy I probably will ever get. And this bothers me greatly that my life is so pathetic that the only guy I can ever get is basically plastic. Literally. It doesn't feel good knowing that this is most likely going to be my love life for the rest of my sad life. Even worse is that I'm sort of coming up witn names for the Real Doll if I had one and that I'd probably get his clothes from Goodwill and start thinking he is alive and referring the thing as my boyfriend. I honestly don't know what to do or how to escape this crisis!