I'm being carted back to Australia :(

[AussieGirl]

Had to leave my (really good) job today, on no notice (my boss was so understanding) and have to go back to australia to sort things out because i can't get the support in england.

i tried to overdose on my tablets on the weekend, i told the doctor i was scared to be alone and scared what i'd do to myself, that i had hid knives around the house - and all he said to me was 'your actual doctor is away for three weeks, until he gets back, we can't change your meds, but i need to take those off you'

so now i'm stuck with no meds. my mum has booked me a plane ticket home but i'm devastated, i loved london, and i'm leaving behind my partner (he is coming in a few weeks as he has to sort out our apartment)

i thought i had it all and now i feel like i have nothing...



So, so, so down....after a weekend of being up

Getting sick of this now

 

[Affective]

So sorry to hear this my friend. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[jax]

That's a shame - sorry.

 

[LilMissLost]

So sorry to hear that aussiegirl, its a shame you have had to go back to australia to get the help you need, i cant believe they took all your medication away from you especially when you had the courage to go and ask for help and to not offer you any more help til your doctor gets back...i really feel for you, i really hope you manage to sort things out and im sorry to hear you didnt get the help you needed so badly in england. There really does need to be a better system in place! All the best and hope you start picking up again soon xx

 

[shell]

sorry

I'm so sorry you didn't get the support you needed here in England.Thanks for being a good friend x

 

[Kos]

Oh no!!!!

I'm confused as to why you're going you back to Australia, can't you see a specialist psychiatrist even if your own doctor is away????? They can't leave you without medication anything could happen to you!!!!


Can't your mum come stay with you????

 

[warriorprincess]

I really feel for you - I had to leave New Zealand when I didn't get any help there, bit of a one horse town. I really don't see why they are leaving you with no help - can you go to your local hospital and explain everything - there must be someone who can see you? I am appalled to hear all of this - surely our country has a duty to protect everyone living in it? especially as I remember you said you have a british passport. try not to give up tho if you do go back to Oz just really work on it and get sorted and the world will be your oyster. Unfortunately i got heavy into drugs for a year on my return and that cocked up any chance of treatment when they diagnosed it back then. I'm now 4 years on and they're refusing to give me that same diagnosis, even tho once again it's f'd up another beautiful relationship which i am frantically trying to patch up(with my daughter's dad). I've been clean for 3 years by the way - these things are always so intense but usually shortlived. It sounds so lovely of your partner - is he an aussie or did you meet him over here? hold onto him he sounds like your light, I hope he will continue supporting you. I'm hoping that's what my (ex?) partner is doing at the mo he's been spending more time with me recently, staying over this last week, thank god i don't know where i'd be without him... It sounds like you have an amazing guy anyway so all I can say is hold on to him.
hope you are feeling ok anyway, and sending you the hugs xxx

 

[Charlie123]

Sorry to hear that!

 

[maudikie]

maudikie

It's all tosh that you can't see another doctor. Ask for a second opinion.
I shouldn't think that the doc. you have seen is very well versed in mental health problems. Psychiatry is a specialist subject, and if youhad stomach ache you would be referred toa surgeion, sowith your symptoms you should see the appropriate specialist.
If you are going back to Australi have you a doctor there who knows you, and knows your problems?
Stop and think for a short while and weigh up the pros and cons.

 

[Deremna]

What is the point if they stress to see a doctor when you're feeling awful yet you get turned away when you're honestly scared of what you might do? Unbelievable. No wonder so many of us try and go without or treat ourselves by other means. Where is our support? I know there are good doctors out there but it just makes me so mad when I hear stuff like this. I'm sorry you had to endure this but I hope you do get the help you need in Australia..

 

[AussieGirl]

You are all so lovely x

Hi there,

Thanks so much for everyone's support - this forum is such a little gem of a lifeline - I love it!

I don't have one definitive psych that knows my case entirely but I do have a GP that I've had for my whole life back there so he knows my case and I've got alot of support back there. My Mum has rung the mental health group and they've got the lot of us in for counselling, and said that if I want to be admitted to a clinic they will more than happily take me.

I was really devastated, I was so not informed of things that apparently I could've got all of this on private health through work..but I guess you find these things a bit too late sometimes. I had been going through the NHS and as a british citizen too yet this doctor (an indian man in his 40s) who was at the mental health care unit at my hospital where I usually see my psychiatrist really turned me away. That scared me because sometimes I get so volatile I don't want to hurt myself, or god forbid my partner, because even though sometimes he gets confused, he's a little saving grace for me.

I would've loved my Mum to come over here, and she wanted to, but she has an eating disorder herself and as a result has recently had her large intestine taken out (don't EVER abuse laxatives people) and she probably should stay near my dad (poor dad, he's got the both of us)

Mum is really optimistic about the help I'll get though, I guess having someone to advocate on your behalf is helpful because unless I write anything down I'm useless.

I'll definitely stay on this thing though..I love knowing that I'm not the only one out there with all these super powers

 

[warriorprincess]

I'll definitely stay on this thing though..I love knowing that I'm not the only one out there with all these super powers

make sure you do you sound so awesome, it sounds like this may be the way forward but i'm stil pretty pissed that this country haven't helped you - agree with other people on here who've said when you get shunned over and over it's no wonder we turn to our own medications. grr..

anyway rant over, all best wishes to you and keep us posted with whatever you do xxx

 

[AussieGirl]

Thanks a million

Do you know what care I have access to in Australia?

* Appointments 3 hours a week with my psychiatrist
* Appointments 2 x 1 hour sessions with a counsellor
* A counsellor (trained in Bipolar) is going to come to my house to spend 3 hours with me once a week to talk to me and raise any issues with me and if I don't want to talk, they'll chill with me til I do
* Support appointments for my mum/dad/boyfriend on how to deal with it


And a huge range of other things - I can't believe the difference in support it's insane...I know there are a lot less people in Australia, but surely an increased demand for services doesn't decrease the value of human life???

 

[LilMissLost]

Wow, that sounds like they are much more geared up towards helping you over there, that is what every person deserves and i am so surprised at the difference in treatment you will receive, to be honest i lost faith in the nhs over here a long while ago, seems like you almost have to know whats wrong yourself before you get any help and even then, i cant help but feel like weve all not been offered proper treatment! I had 1 psychiatrist appointment after 6 weeks of being on wrong medication, am now on antipsychotics and a mood stabiliser and have to wait 4-5 months to see psychiatrist again, no counselling been offered and a 2 week wait til i see my doctor again. Its bad and it does make me cross, anyway sorry for the rant and all the best again!! xxx