- Apr 25, 2010
I self harm. Sometimes, I do it because it makes me feel better.Other times I do it when I have blackouts and have no recollection of it. I also do it because things tell me to. Sometimes, I'm strong enough to ignore it, but now it's getting to a point where I'm losing control. For example, I can be walking in the street, and someone will look at me. Not in a bad way or anything, just normally. Something tells me to do things which are absolutely horrible. I went to my doctors 5 months ago, and told him everything. I received no help whatsoever. Now it has escalated to the point of where I am being told to seriously hurt others, and in some cases, kill them. I have the strangest desire to do this. I really, really want to live my life, I'm only 21 for gods sake. But I'm too afraid to go back to my doctors with this, especially since it has now evolved into something far more serious. What will happen to me if I tell my GP this? I won't be arrested or anything will I? I just need help. Any help would be greatly appreciated.