- Jul 20, 2019
- United States
Are you from the U.S? I was thinking maybe people who are not from the U.S wouldnt know that I'm being broadcasted around the country. No offense. And why did your sons friend think you were possessed? What did you do around him?Hey Tvgirl! I never got the treatment I needed. Things got A LOT worse for me. One day a thought separate from my own in my head, came to me. It said I was NOT being spied on by cameras, but that it was a psychic telling the whole world everything I did. It said it had been brainwashed to torture me and it did. I spent 22 years believing this and living in a lot of pain. It stole my life from me, my friends and family. The psychic gradually became a voice that became very cruel. Then about 3 months ago, my son confided in a friend about my condition. His friend said that he thought I was possessed by a demon. I looked it up online and the symptoms included schizophrenia. It took about a month for me to really look at the possibility of schizophrenia. When I really looked at it and found testimonials from other paranoid schizophrenics, I started to believe. The more I read , the more I believed. My voice started losing its power over me. I was so desperate to feel better, I really forced myself to change my thoughts. Everything I had believed was false, a lie. I realized that the paranoid schizophrenia had stolen my life from me. I'm now 60 years old! In the process of fully realizing all of this I had several panic attacks and almost fainted at least 3 times. It's like a miracle that I am getting better. I can get my life back, be free of so much pain. Sorry this is so long. I can't say what might happen to you if you can't turn this around. I would start by finding testimonials from other paranoid schizophrenics so that you can believe what is happening to you is all in your head. That is the most important step. I'm praying for you, Tvgirl!