if you had the magic tablet to take you away

[jekel1]

i feel so low now , but for some reason i cant cry, i have planned my suicide a few times today, i went from being the happiest person in the world when the crisis team were hear to absolute despair. im keep seeing shadows dancing about and whispers, i really do want to die right now, because i cant cope with the depression after a high, the doc said its bi polar 1, i dont care really i just dont even want help any more , i cant remember my days gone by. im really falling here. they said i can call any time but for what , they wont admit me cause theres no room, im so desperate right now . if i had a tablet to end it all i would, really cant talk to any one as they just nod and say it wont last you will be ok but you guys understand me.

 

[keepsafe]

Hey Jekel - why don;t you give them a call now and see if there are any beds?

I understand just how low you are feeling really I do and I don;t like the c.team either but please ring them and explain how you are so desperate again - they have to listen sometime! It makes me angry that they are not listening to you

Talk here, keep posting

KS

 

[mad as a hatter]

I agree u gotta give them a call and keep doing till they listen 2 u i understand what the mood swings off bipolor r like there terrible especially when u total crash after a nice high it,s so despairing