- Sep 9, 2009
- bradford west yorks
i feel so low now , but for some reason i cant cry, i have planned my suicide a few times today, i went from being the happiest person in the world when the crisis team were hear to absolute despair. im keep seeing shadows dancing about and whispers, i really do want to die right now, because i cant cope with the depression after a high, the doc said its bi polar 1, i dont care really i just dont even want help any more , i cant remember my days gone by. im really falling here. they said i can call any time but for what , they wont admit me cause theres no room, im so desperate right now . if i had a tablet to end it all i would, really cant talk to any one as they just nod and say it wont last you will be ok but you guys understand me.