- Jan 1, 2014
Letting myself feel good, be normal, go to the gym, go to work, get back to normal, be okay, that means it didn't happen. I don't know how to live normallly like everyone else, and still have this thing, this disorder and the nightmare experience that came along for the ride. I don't know how to be normal again. I feel like i should work in a special mental health place, and live in a special mental health world, because i am not fit enough for normality, not able to leave my bad days behind. Is there life after suicide attempts, life after deep painful depression, life after wild mania, i don't know if there is life after sectioning, llife after overdose, life after police, life after ambulances, llife after A&E, life after having a psychiatrist, being known to a team, having a CPN, how can life go back to normal again. How can i go back to work with this baggage, this huge huge baggage.