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#41
SAD is also from nutritional deficiencies
I think D3 in particular

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My necklace that I got from my best friend 5 years ago broke... It was a necklace that reminded me to stay strong and stay alive. A promises I made 5 years ago..

It means so much to me.. I'm crying my eyes out..
Feel like hope is gone.. I know how stupid that sounds. Like no necklace is going to save you...
Oh no, it doesn't sound stupid to me at all. I am so sorry to hear about your necklace!

I know what it's like to lose a valued piece of jewelry. The necklace I lost was a family heirloom and I still feel a sense of sadness to this day when I think about it.
 
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Oh no, it doesn't sound stupid to me at all. I am so sorry to hear about your necklace!

I know what it's like to lose a valued piece of jewelry. The necklace I lost was a family heirloom and I still feel a sense of sadness to this day when I think about it.
It's just a piece of you that broke down. Something that was with you to the hard times. Something that gives you strength.

It broke my heart
 
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Something I wrote today.

Waves as high as the mountains.
Rumbling down the beach. It looks like a soft blue blanket. You touched it but than you feel the power. The hidden power inside. The secret of the wave.

It is strong, powerful and before you know it pulls you under. You try to swim but you know it's pointless. Your run out of breath and begin to see the light.

You hear a gentle voice. It's not your time my child. You open your eyes and there you are. At the beach where it all started. The voice still echoing through your mind.
 
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You want everybody to notice. Everybody to see. The pain inside. Inside your mind.

You want them to understand. Understand how hard it is. How hard you are fighting with yourself.

But they don't see.. see that you get frustrated, angry and sad.

Why doesn't anybody care. Why doesn't anybody ask how I feel. Am I invisible?

No, You are here. We all see you but we don't see your pain because you never show. You hide your feelings with a smile.

When someone asks. How are you doing? You tell them your fine. So ask yourself again. Do they not understand or can't they understand?
 
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I write a lot but it doesn't help. It gives me only more ideas to do shit to myself and fantsy them in my mind.

I dream about it every night. The shit that I can do to myself to fuck myself up. I don't know what to do anymore..
Have you looked into seeing a psycholagist or going into a in patient facility working wonders for me
 
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really awesome writings Justafriend

maybe you can start a poetry thread
in the members gallery
for your lyrics

:loveshower::loveshower::loveshower:
 
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My day couldn't get worse.. I God banned from an other website.. without warning.

I never did something wrong... Now they shut me out on the only place right to this place where I can talk to people.. they don't give a shit about you.

Don't they think about the next thing what will happen if you ban someone from a save place.. it goes fk wrong man.. 😣😣😣

Need to ... Need to ...
some forums do that to people, even so-called "support forums" i speak from experience :sorry::hug:

please dont hurt yourself you dont deserve it :hug:
 
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My necklace that I got from my best friend 5 years ago broke... It was a necklace that reminded me to stay strong and stay alive. A promises I made 5 years ago..

It means so much to me.. I'm crying my eyes out..
Feel like hope is gone.. I know how stupid that sounds. Like no necklace is going to save you..
But it was my reminder that I do matter and don't need to do shit to myself.

It feels like a promise is broken.. idk why it hurts that much..
i am so sorry about your necklace :sorry::hug:
 
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Yes
Have you looked into seeing a psycholagist or going into a in patient facility working wonders for me
Yes before my vacation I did get the call for my therapist.. only after that I didn't hear a thing.

I'm in Indonesia now so it doesn't matter but when I come home I look in to it!
 
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I wanted to go as @Lunar Lady put's it hoboing tonight, I really just wanted to take off and just disappear from everything for a while but it's not good for me, I don't sleep evry well at the best fo times and when I'm wandering I'll average two or three hoursa night every couple of days - a couple of day's of that and the hallucinations and paranoia will kick in. Instead I came on here and tried to help and support people and the feelins have passed. Like all thoughts and feelings if you leave them alone they will go on their merry way. Pm me if you need someone to talk to, I'll be around for a bit. If not PM me any time and If I'm around I'll get back to you. Here to listen.
Wat does that mean lunarlady?
 
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The night is dark and so are my thoughts.
I feels like I'm dead without the light. Lost without the warm feeling. Like no hope is left..

Alone in the dark. A place where inner demons try to tell you all the lies. A places without hope.. it will try to kill you. It feels like it makes sense.

Until the next sunrise arrives and you see light again. You feel the soft warm touch of the sun. The flower so beautiful. You feel like there is hope.

It takes only a few hours every night and day to make you feel worse or okay.
 
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My day ended horrible yesterday.. I have again a bladder infection.. so much pain. My belly hurts so much.. the medication makes my head crazy and I need to throw up.. great start
 
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#59
sorry about that
but maybe go back to doctor
see if the medication can be changed

lots of loves

:love::love::love::love::love:
 
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sorry about that, but maybe go back to doctor
see if the medication can be changed

lots of loves

:love::love::love::love::love:
I'm in Indonesia I can't ask my doctor. I live in the Netherlands. So that's kinda hard to do. (16 hour flight)
 
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