I'm sorry you're feeling so low, I hope things improve for you soon. It may help to have a look at these two pages on the forum: Suicidal Crisis and Mental Health Forum - Getting Help about what to do if you're feeling suicidal, or if you need emergency help. I hope you can use the forum for support during this difficult time.
If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.
If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:
In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.
Crying is good, do you feel able to cry?
Life sounds so hard for you right now.
Can you do anything to take yourself out of this state?
Music helps me, or a cup of tea and standing on the door step looking at people walk by, birds, sometimes a neighbour will say hello
They sound like small things but they help push me along another hour
Please call an ambulance/help if you think you cannot keep safe
Your life is precious
How are you?
Please take special care of yourself. If i was there, i would chuck those pills away for you.
You need to find a treatment that you can do/take when you feel like this. My psychiatrist gave me prn medication, do you not have that? The psychiatrist would make me sleep to get through this and it is what many people do when they are suffering too much, medicated sleep that is safe.
Can you ask your doctor for something to take or someone you can call at these times?