
Steeeve
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Anyone ever feel this way? I want to be happy or even just satisfied, but every time an opportunity presents itself I find myself withdrawing even further from my life, digging myself an even deeper hole.
Sometimes I feel like I dont really want to be happy, I just want everyone to be as miserable as me. I dont even try to feel better, I just try to bring everyone down to my level. My friends dont even want to hang around me most of the time because of this. When I'm not in a depressed state they just assume I'm going to act like a prick, ignore me, and wind up starting the whole cycle again.
Any thoughts? This is by far the hardest part of depression for me to deal with. I can handle the lows, but the mere thought that I might actually enjoy being miserable is unbearable.
Sometimes I feel like I dont really want to be happy, I just want everyone to be as miserable as me. I dont even try to feel better, I just try to bring everyone down to my level. My friends dont even want to hang around me most of the time because of this. When I'm not in a depressed state they just assume I'm going to act like a prick, ignore me, and wind up starting the whole cycle again.
Any thoughts? This is by far the hardest part of depression for me to deal with. I can handle the lows, but the mere thought that I might actually enjoy being miserable is unbearable.