- May 10, 2015
My life is over. I'm drowning in pain, tears, heartache and can hardly breath with the anxiety I have. Death seems peaceful. A way to escape from all the pain. The pain won't stop. His words stab me at my soul. He tares me down shreds and happiness I had left to nothingness. I love my girls I do wish to hurt them. But I can not take the hurt the pain the tears anymore. 13 years I have suffered abuse and I can't anmore. I've lost my strength. Here on mothers day I'm crying my eyes out asking why should I live anymore. I cannot bare to go through this again and again. The name calling the cussing the yelling the fear that struck through me by a man who said he would always b there. But who is to b there when u the man are the one hurting me. Who protects me from u. I no longer have the energy to carry this. Death seems so peaceful right now. I can't do it anymore.