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messed-up
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I went to doc on friday, she changed my meds from 60mg fluoxetine to 150mg effexor xl and 15 mg diazepam for anxiety.
I feel empty, can't even get a thought in my head there is just nothing there,
I got so bad I bit myself hard on my arm and it was a bit of relief, I don't want to start going down that road, I wish I could die but I wouldn't do that to my kids (they are the only things that get me through every day).
My hubby isn't really helping, I know it's hard for him to, but when he sees me down like this he puts his hand up as if he's had enough and walks away.
that makes me feel guilty, like I choose to feel like this. I have no-one to talk to cos I feel like a winge or a burden, who wants to listen to someone like me.
I honestly can't cope with this anymore, but I know I have to for my babies.
I don't know what to do, I can't even cry I feel so dead inside.
I want to go to bed and never wake up........selfish bitch that I am.
thanks for reading just needed to get this out.
I feel empty, can't even get a thought in my head there is just nothing there,
I got so bad I bit myself hard on my arm and it was a bit of relief, I don't want to start going down that road, I wish I could die but I wouldn't do that to my kids (they are the only things that get me through every day).
My hubby isn't really helping, I know it's hard for him to, but when he sees me down like this he puts his hand up as if he's had enough and walks away.
that makes me feel guilty, like I choose to feel like this. I have no-one to talk to cos I feel like a winge or a burden, who wants to listen to someone like me.
I honestly can't cope with this anymore, but I know I have to for my babies.
I don't know what to do, I can't even cry I feel so dead inside.
I want to go to bed and never wake up........selfish bitch that I am.
thanks for reading just needed to get this out.
