- Jan 10, 2020
- New York New York
I’ve been making some strides. I read a book to help me, and had been sleeping consistently the same time. I thought everything would be just a little bit better at least. But the last 4 days I’ve been breaking down so hard, and today I was just like I can’t do this anymore. I feel like no matter how hard I try I can’t get better. I graduated high school a year and a half now aswell, and so I started looking for jobs and will get help from my sister soon to get a job. I thought this would make me much happier but no. Today I felt frozen by fear. I feel like such a failure cause I don’t have a job yet and if I don’t get one soon... I don’t know. I think it’s best I die. I have no chance at a relationship, no friends, no job, no therapy, and no faith that I will get better.