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my 2 year cadetship program from a hydro powerplant just recently ended and am forced to look for a job again... since desperation set in, i looked for job to a lot of places and sent resumes like crazy
at the time i had no job for a month, there were two job offers for me at the time... one was a coal powerplant with a cadetship training program with 6 months rigid training along with classes but there was no assurance of being hired as a regular even when we had good performance.
the second job offer was in a feedmill plant good for regularization where there is a "training" before being deployed to the real job. the advantage was it was near to my place. the disadvantage was it was not is not a powerplant and not really a good career for engineers.
the coal powerplant was good for a career since i am an electrical engineer but i was discouraged by the saying that there is no assurance that i will get hired, so like my instincts tell me, i chose the feedmill plant job since i will be sure to a regular.
now here comes my regret... there is no actual training in the feedmill plant... just a week after the job, the position was fully turned over to me and a lot of things confused me at the time that i didn't understand yet and then theres my colleagues always scolding me for not doing this and that... etc.
now observing in the coal powerplant cadetship program, they hired teachers and proper lectures on their cadetship program and proper hands on training and even doing little quizzes and submission of what they have learned on the cadetship program.
now i wished i chose the coal power plant job instead of the feedmill plant job... it really hurt a lot knowing the regret that i felt on choosing the wrong job... but we need money anyway so i have to not regret and move on...
i really wished i made a different choice back then.. like choosing the coal powerplant job instead of the feedmill one... where i will experience proper training, lectures, i still want to have the feeling that we are on a classroom before being released to the real world.
right now my social anxiety is kicking in, I don't know how to talk to people properly and I am now the boss of the contractuals and don't know what to do... I need help... I can't breathe properly and have an aching heart because of all the pain, regret and suffering that I am experiencing now...
at the time i had no job for a month, there were two job offers for me at the time... one was a coal powerplant with a cadetship training program with 6 months rigid training along with classes but there was no assurance of being hired as a regular even when we had good performance.
the second job offer was in a feedmill plant good for regularization where there is a "training" before being deployed to the real job. the advantage was it was near to my place. the disadvantage was it was not is not a powerplant and not really a good career for engineers.
the coal powerplant was good for a career since i am an electrical engineer but i was discouraged by the saying that there is no assurance that i will get hired, so like my instincts tell me, i chose the feedmill plant job since i will be sure to a regular.
now here comes my regret... there is no actual training in the feedmill plant... just a week after the job, the position was fully turned over to me and a lot of things confused me at the time that i didn't understand yet and then theres my colleagues always scolding me for not doing this and that... etc.
now observing in the coal powerplant cadetship program, they hired teachers and proper lectures on their cadetship program and proper hands on training and even doing little quizzes and submission of what they have learned on the cadetship program.
now i wished i chose the coal power plant job instead of the feedmill plant job... it really hurt a lot knowing the regret that i felt on choosing the wrong job... but we need money anyway so i have to not regret and move on...
i really wished i made a different choice back then.. like choosing the coal powerplant job instead of the feedmill one... where i will experience proper training, lectures, i still want to have the feeling that we are on a classroom before being released to the real world.
right now my social anxiety is kicking in, I don't know how to talk to people properly and I am now the boss of the contractuals and don't know what to do... I need help... I can't breathe properly and have an aching heart because of all the pain, regret and suffering that I am experiencing now...